Is longing for death wrong?

@jewsephabboud Thank you for your questions!

@jewsephabboud Longing for death is very common during Ego death. You’re not alone. I’d bet if you took a poll on this forum alone you’d find many that share a similar experience to what you’re going through. Everything is temporary though and as we experience our ego deaths we give life to our authentic selves within. Without the fear, guilt, worry that is attached to the ego. Take this opportunity to find the real you. That internal you without the mask. Your manifestations will reflect that inner peace you find. Your perspective and experiences will shift to resonate with your authentic soul blueprint. We have to shed the skin of our egos to truly know thyself. You have a Divine mission here or you wouldn’t be on this forum. Find it and you’ll find true happiness and contention.

@nickq1233 in one respect, I find your answer on point for those longing to reconnect with those who have crossed over.

What is your opinion on just not wanting to be here anymore? My star family didn't incarnate this round and apparently I took on some karmic debt for some of them. It's been a good life with great memories but following my awakening many years too soon ( one must be careful not to beg for clarity before our journey naturally occurs) I have removed so many negative people and actions that I really don't have anyone other than every animal I run into or live with. I'm here for them I know, the critters but interacting with most people becomes a constant yucky feeling. I see through most and have less tolerance knowing who they really are. I think I belong somewhere else other than here on Earth. Nobody gets me

@fayedollar I hear you. I think the topic resonates on multiple levels for different starseeds at different stages of their awakening. The why or root of the experience we’ve chosen pre incarnation. What support we’ve chosen to incarnate with and what contracts we hold with others. What’s our contribution or mission now for this incarnation and what needs to be cleared to make space for the new energies coming in to be able to embody the highest truest Divine aspects of our soul. It’s a transitionary space for most at this time. I believe we’re transitioning out of the older programming, conditioning, themes, beliefs attached to the lower densities or dimensions and previous incarnation's we’ve experienced. This process can absolutely feel isolating and like we don’t want to be here any longer at stages along the journey. Shining light on our shadows, our past life karma and trauma. Clearing inherited blood line and ancestral lineage related energies, wounds and experiences. I feel like we all should be holding intentions daily and performing the energy work needed in our meditations to expedite the process of clearing the things that need to be removed to make space to receive those higher authentic blueprints of ourselves. Allowing us to embody our Divinity in its highest form as Christed beings walking the Earth. Our mission truly. The Divine “God” aspect of why we are really here right now. So many are transitioning from Carbon based structures to Crystalline and that process isn’t always as graceful as we’d like. Our ego deaths can be brutal as we cling to the things that we’re holding attachments to still. 

Have you explored your Elemental Spirit connections? Your connection to the animals, Gaia, the elements. Maybe you do have an element of your soul tribe here in the form of the Elemental Kingdom or Elemental Spirit? What makes you feel like your galactic guides or ascension team isn’t engaging or present with you now as well? 

Thank you for your heartfelt response. Yes I realize that we are all going through changes and at different paces. It's not that I don't feel my guides as I get constant reminders of their presence. 

At 63 and from the 1st round of Indigo's,  I've accomplished so much growth,  experiences,  and understandings personally and it feels like a distant life I can remember yet I'm still here. Ya know how there are 5 epochs supposedly here on Earth? I have personally experienced 5 epochs of my soul during just this incarnation. I just don't like it here anymore. It's beautiful yes and good souls along with the balancing bad, I just don't think anything is left to do as my journey completed here and I'm bord. Knowing what lies beyond makes it tougher to want to endure the absurdity of lack of togetherness. I've been awake too long while awaiting others to awaken. It's extremely frustrating and I no longer choose to be social because I see through most everyone I meet. I feel home in my heart and it's just not here. Homesick most likely 😪 

Thank you for the conversation guys!

@fayedollar I feel what you’re saying. You’ve been awakened for longer than most on the forum. You’ve witnessed and experienced the ascension in terms that a lot of newer awakened satrseeds can’t relate to. I’m one of those late awakeners. If it weren’t for my ascension team and the contracts we hold I wouldn't know that there is ascension going on.:) I hold a far different experience than you in my ascension journey, yet I can absolutely relate. Do you feel like you’ve done this before? Maybe that you’re on your 2nd, 3rd, 4th ascension? The energy that you can anchor to Gaia is incredible with your lineage. Do you feel like you have another mission here for this incarnation?

Like an upcoming mission that you may not hold awareness to yet. You’ve been awakened long enough to know that intervention is planned and will ultimately happen. That information in itself makes it extremely difficult to want to stay here, I know. It validates your knowing that the conditions in which the population is oppressed, enslaved, controlled is not acceptable. It’s hard to want to stay here knowing what you know while you’re experiencing the struggle of those systems. Would your perspective change if you see liberation or major shifts to the status quo? I feel what you’re saying. Without movement or change it’s very difficult to want to be here. What if there is movement and great change coming, would be my question truly. If that would change your perspective on wanting to continue on Earths mission then maybe you’re flowing through a temporary hardship related to your experience here? Knowing the finish line is ascension and liberation. 

Thank you Nick. You seem to understand the basic dilemma I speak of but knowing that I've already accomplished my main missions, it is possible that another lurks around the corner. My health isn't great and now cancer again! I have no fear but have suffered so much already with 28 broken bones, 4 in my neck and autoimmune disorders which keeps me from enjoying anything anymore really. I moved 10 years ago and have no friends or local family ( which is highly dysfunctional). I'm just so tired of pushing through to the big event, and I already know what to expect, so.....

The only thing that might be awaiting me is to learn how to dissolve a tumor with frequencies. 13.56 MHz to be precise which can dissolve cancer cells. If I could find a sound engineer to help prove this, then it would be worth sharing with humanity. Other than that, I keep learning and absorbing everything I can but don't have anyone to share with. It's why I'm here now. I don't plan on doing anything stupid as we all have our exit times. I'm just waiting for my turn ❤

For you to take the time to share your thoughts with me is more special than you know. I appreciate you, 🙏,  and this forum. I left all other social media sites because I despise the the idea of being tracked by "man" . 

@fayedollar So glad that you found the community here. You’re in such a great place emotionally and mentally regarding the cancer. You have the observer perspective, operating from the perspective of awareness. Obviously though, considering your lineage and soul journey. You know that you’re a multi dimensional being of light, living in the mind of Source. If your intuition is guiding you to those frequencies.. man, definitely explore that. Are you thinking a directed energy frequency emitter of some type? To flood the area of the cancer with 13.56 MHz? Are you listening to those frequencies audibly? I’m fascinated by alternate healing methods via frequency /vibration.

Med beds/ light capsules would be nice for all of us. ❤️‍🩹 Healing in general would be immediate with some ET technologies. I look forward to the reality in which we have full access to those technologies and energies. I try to manifest from that perspective. Looking forward to full liberation and access to galactic healing methods. 

EA has provided a platform for so many starseeds. I can’t begin to tell you how many soul tribe and related starseeds I’ve ran into here. Like a beacon. If you’re into online starseed communities, Bret’s Cosmic Awakening group is great. Figured since you’re new to your area, maybe an online interactive community could help? Especially with your skill set. He’s a reiki master and does Reiki group sessions over zoom weekly. I think they do Yoga too now. I used to pop in over there pretty regularly. Nice, cleansing and relaxing energy work. If you have an energy work ability you can offer that to the group too. I’m an energy worker so I used to really enjoy working on others over there. Great family of starseeds there in Bret’s group. 🙂 I think his site is www.cosmicawakening.org still.

Lily Nova has a great Telegram chat for starseeds. Here’s a link to one of her YouTube videos. I think her telegram group link is in the description. She’s great and her community is great. Some options for online starseed community expansion. 🙂

YouTube 

https://www.youtube.com/live/kxSi8JKUE7Y?si=GS4XAPeoamZmjmSR  

Patrice here on the forum has these cool sessions that he puts on as well. He’s an incredible healer, and dense energy remover. I’ve never met a better dark energy remover / energy cleaner. His group sessions are really cool. He’s very intuitive about his group sessions. He activated my third eye actually. Cleared some blockages from me and has removed some reptilian tracking implants X from me as well. 🙂 That only doesn’t sound crazy in a starseed forum. lol. https://www.patricekrysztofiak.com/weekly-group-session/

@fayedollar I would focus on the purpose you have here.  You are here for a reason.  It is okay, if you are unsure of that reason, at the moment.  But there truly is a reason.  No matter the state of flux, or the frustration you find in the 3-d world, it won’t change the fact that you are still here, for a reason.  I’ve been feeling this way my entire life, so I truly get it.  But it is just a symptom of this 3-D world, that you, at times, are just tired of it all.  But knowing that there is a purpose for you here, even if you can’t exactly pinpoint it, like so many of us can’t, at this point in time, doesn’t mean it isn’t going to reveal itself.  You are not alone; the past 10 years have been the most bizarre of my life, but also, the most confusing, and almost “limbo-like” of my entire life.  It makes no sense to me either, but the insanity of the world, sort of aligns with why we might be feeling a bit directionless at times.  Hang in there.