Spritual Crisis

Hi @lighthealer_arkie !

I don't know if you have seen tha last EA Q&A:

https://elizabethapril.com/video-post/wednesday-may-22-2024-members-qa-live-event/

EA channels what is happening for me. I am so so grateful she did and for everything she does.

She has fueled my faith a little bit. What has hit me most was: "it is a very real world" talking about spirituallity. I could feel it deeply. Feeling like I was relying is a not real world was the most painfull part for me... Afterthat I will have to deal with the frustration of not being able to co-create.

I am following her advice to first focus on the basic foundation in the physical world so I can elevate my frecuency, and then manifest also in the spiritual.

I still think it is harder for me to create my reality tha for others awaken, but I can see that there is maybe a reason to make me go through this... There is maybe not a block but neither easyness: So my conclusion is that i have to really really LEARN HOW to manifest and connect properly and little by little. I obviously can't see the whole picture, and it is still very frustrating... But I am going to focus on very specific real 3D foundational things in my life to see where it takes me.

Thanks for everyone reading this, and if you are in te same situation, i see and feel you...

Sending lots of love

PS: I promise to write in the forum when I breakthrough, and let everyone know what my path has been, as it can maybe help someone.

@peggy-maria Wow, I'm so happy for you, this is Divine timing. The fact alone that EA is here for you rn is proof that Spirituality is working. You manifested this. You cried out for help to the universe, and to this forum, and you got it. For me thats nothing less than a miracle! Bless you and sending love ❤

@peggy-maria Hello beautiful soul! Man, oh man you are NOT alone in this feeling. This is going to sound like a stupid question, but have you ever watched Polar Express? Reading through the entire post and this is what popped in my mind and maybe it'll help, maybe it won't but just go with it for a second.

This little boy in the movie can't hear the bell. Why? He doesn't believe in Santa. He goes through this entire magical experience to show him the believing isn't OUTSIDE but truly on the inside. The thing that comes to mind is that you don't TRULY believe you have the power to do what other starseeds have the ability to do. And this hits home for me, in SOOOOO many ways. 

I don't feel it's an energetic block for you but more of a, I call BS because I don't see it. In truth though, you've been "BEING" a starseed your entire life. You might not necessarily have abilities that can be explained, like EA or other channelers, etc. but maybe your superpower is something you already know how to do, very well I might add. 

For me, I don't have any superhuman abilities, but me as a Mom of a 16, 12, and 7 year old and a Wife for 15 years, I can see through my own family's BS, which has in turn over the years, given me the ability to read the energy of a room before I interact with a person or group of people. I can tell when my children aren't well (energetically), like just an uncanny Spidey sense when it comes to my kids, husband, and my fur babies. That Spidey sense has kind of bled through to other aspects of my life as well. I can kind of shift the energy dynamics around in a room or meeting just with an intention. 

Take an objective step back and look at all the ways when life just "flowed" so effortlessly and you'll see your "human superpower" in a sense. I think for me once I stopped focusing on what I didn't have and started to just enjoy life and instead of having "faith" in something outside of me, I just "KNOW I AM SOURCE", that made everything click for me. 

Questioning everything is a great sign that you are finding yourself and sometimes right when you're ready to give up (as long as you don't) you'll see you're right on the edge of greatness! I hope this helps and sending you lots of light and love from Alaska!

@thiannahunter thank you so much for taking your time, energy and LOVE to answer to me. So so so much apreciated.

I Will see the film you recomend 😊

Really good what you get for you and your family! Amazing you can help them and others. THANKs for sharing so I can get what others can do. I believe innit in such a profound way ❤️

If I think about It, i have never had the feeling that things flow in my Life. Not that I have a bad Life, I have a wonderfull Life, and always had, with challenges for sure. But I have always felt different, always prefering to observe instead of interacting. And not finding something I am really good at that can become a career. I tried different things, and I thought It was because i was "following" the Matrix so hard, working so hard and still not being recognised... So I took the loop of faith in something that I think I am pretty good at, thinking that I would find momentum at some point, for putting the work, for learning to follow the voice inside of me and for having the faith. But two full years in and nothing... 

Also in this journey, as you can imagine, I ask for guidance a lot, and I keep "receiving" a big Yes. ( I ask for signs, and also when I go to sleep i get sensations and sometimes short ideas) But two years IS a long time for litterally nothing. So what I think i am receiving must be wrong? 

I mean: how do you know that something works? For example, for you: how do you know what you perceive IS what IS actually happening? Because you can find "proof" that you are right. For example, if you keep getting that there IS something off with one of your kids, and you observé and Talk to them, and their Life seem so prefectly fine, and so they are totally ok. Would you think your energy perception was "correct"? Over and over and over again? 

What I am trying to pinpoint is that, ok you first need to trust in order to see, but what if you trust and trust, totally believing everything, following what you perceive, but time and time goes by, and what you think your are getting, doesnt show anything... So something IS off or not?

In my case, there IS not matching between what I "get" and my reality. So... i dont understand, feel so frustrated and lost... I dont know where to turn to get things flowing with ease. And now that I am awakened, I cant go back... But I cant go forward, and even if I feel what It is true, and cant yet apply It to my reality, so what is the point? Am I making things Up?

Now what I ask over and over and over again to the Universe IS: please give me proof that IS not my "imagination", that actually my inner voice, my intuition IS working so well and should keep listening. For now It is giving feathers everywhere! Ok... Must be feathers changing season for birds! 😂

For others in my situation, I promise to keep you updated if any news tho 🙃

Anyway, THANK you for reaching out and for sending me LOVE from Alaska ❤️