Spritual Crisis

@peggy-maria Did you try to ask help from anyone in the business section here? Or EA's coaching call? With a little luck they can see what's blocking you the most. Sending you Love in this journey ❤️

@lighthealer_arkie thank you so much for your reply. Of course I would love to know if I have a block, but my question to EA really is about spritual crisis, If she can give us some light as I am sure that my specific case is not the only one...

WHAT CAN WE DO WHEN NOTHING SEEMS TO HAPPEN IN OUR REALITY AND WE CANNOT SEE THE ENERGETICS BY OURSELFS? hOW DO WE STILL BELIEVE FOR A LONG PERIOD OF TIME IN SOMETHING THAT WE CAN'T SEE BY OURSELFS AND DOES NOT DEVELOP IN ANY WAY IN OUR REALITY?

I haven't try to ask for help to anyone here, because I believed in my own power to see my path, to follow the signs and to go forward. Not working, even with courses, meditations...

For the coaching call with EA, I set the intention to only be chosen if she can give me access to information that I cannot access by myself... But I haven't been chosen and still can't get the info by myself. I am stuck profesionally, financially and psychiclly, with no answers... for a long time now. Which has led me to a huge spiritual crisis: is even spirituallity a thing if I cannot access the info by myself, and my intuition is guiding me in a stuck path?

I am sure I am not the only one feeling this...

@peggy-maria Sending so much love and positive vibes!❤️✨

@peggy-maria faith is enough for any energy work, and any creation in our life. Faith comes from within. Answers can come from without, but the answer must resonate with our own center to have effect. 

Can you navigate your house in the dark? Can you navigate someone else's house in the dark? Either house will be easier to navigate if someone else turns on the light. 

You are powerful enough to do anything, but do not dismiss assistance that appears in your life from others. It is also from yourself.

How can spirituality not be real, if you exist?

Very glad you cried out for help, because that's what we're here for! Yes, Trust should be enough,  trust that life will unfold for you as you wish. Can you see beyond the Matrix,  the 3D illusion? Take away everything you think is real? There is only Love. It's okay to question everything, even spirituality but spirituality is the only thing that leads you to love. Im with you ofc because we are one, so i can feel what you feel. What are your wishes from life? A nice job, a good pay and clearvoyance? A partner? Be very specific of what you want. And manifest only one thing at a time. Be patient and if you want free help it's here:

I'm currently re-listening EAs podcasts on Podbean, check it out! https://www.podbean.com/pa/pbblog-w5r75-54ee48

@lighthealer_arkie @scolere06 i appreciated so much the time, energy and LOVE in your answer.

Imagine you have a mask on your, that everyone keeps telling you that when you take It off, you Will see Magic happen in your reality, and you do It, and nothing happens over and over and over and over again... I dont care if there IS a mask or not, because my reality IS still the same. I believe in energy and oneness and LOVE and manisfestation and co-creation, but i dont see anything in my reality about It, and I cant access It. So what IS the point? 

Imagine EA story, but with the first past Life regression she sees nothing. Imagine past Life regression number 1567, And still nothing... Imagine she doesnt go the GFL meeting in the Moon, imagine she doesnt have access. Imagine she doesnt have the insights about her past life with her now wife, imagine she marries his ex. Would she believe the way she does? No. 

I talk about EA story because she speaks about It. I dont know your story. Do you just believe we a super powerfull multidimensional beings because you KNOW or because you have seen and experiences It?

I only have faith, and I think It is not enough...

Letting me know I am super powerfull multidimensional being does not add to my Life,  It is giving stuckness, not fluidity. And I tried and tried researching, studing and listening, and practiced, and asked over and over and over again about my path, and letting go and everything in between. I can tell you I have a máster in manisfestation theory and a million exercices done consistently. Akashic records, breathwork, meditation. I feel the tip of the iceberg, i feel the energy, but nothing more... I cant see, i cant apply... After relying in my faith over and over, even if I feel it's the truth, maybe Spirituallity IS not for me, not for my reality.

Dont get me wrong, i have so much appreciation for my Life, but since my awakening i thought i was a multidimensional being, here for a purpose or at least co-create our Life. But apparently no, and I dont understand anything... Frustrating and disempowering...

A real spiritual Crisis, and I know I cant be alone...

@peggy-maria how do you define spiritual awakening?

@peggy-maria Are you waiting for small miracles? Like what i do see regularly e.g. numbers like 111 or 555 or 2222, which includes 666 and black cats btw. A deja vue. A dream that's making you laugh. A hunch something's about to happen. You predicting an outcome of say a football game. Small things. Besides, im not clairvoyant if you might expect all starseeds to be. Please elaborate your expectations of Ascending.

@lighthealer_arkie @scolere06 i cannot THANK you enough for having this conversation with me, as I literally have no one around awakened.

I am aware than awakening for everyone IS different. For me, when my mum died I could feel her presente. There was something undeniable for me there: i was so scared of the hole she would leave in my Life by dying. There was no such a hole. There was her with me. I couldnt see her, or touch her o hear her... But she is with me. Its a knowing by feeling.

After that, i have been researching and listening, nd discerning what i feel truth for me and what not. EA was an incredible found. I LOVE her. She is amazing and I have so much gratitude for her. I resonate with every Word she speaks, no Matter what crazy things she shares 😂 I start crying with a lot of her info and I feel so connnected to her. Another example of not resonating with me IS human design. I believe It is true and valuable for many people, but not for me. 

There IS a play between believing and after that making sense for you in your Life, connecting dots and making everything work together.

I get signs and what I thought were downloads, but the puzzle pieces just Don't click. I could give you some examples, but long story short: i get what I think are signs (mostly info appering directly in my mind when almost asleep/meditating or repeated info arriving to my Life, or asking for specific signs and "receiving"), and following them, but nothing happens afterwards. Not even a shift in me. So IS It the universe/my guides/my higher-self ot IS It Just my mind playing around? So I have been relying in my faith and my "intuition" for several years now, not being capable of connecting dots.

Carrer side, i have tried a lot of different things in my life but nothing really works... It is not that I dont have skills, but somehow i cant move forward. When my awakening, i thought that I had been so 3D driven, and that that was the reason to not "succeed". So I followed my joy, my passion, even if It didnt make sense i took the leap of faith following the signs and making real Life moves. Nothing... I ask for signs and for what I understand, yes this IS It. But i am stuck, once again. 

As you can imagine, i also tried to ask for the universe to show me. Nothing else than repeated numbers... I cant read that... IS really that a thing?!!??

So what IS the point of Spirituallity? Having faith with nothing else? Where IS my power? If the universe keeping me stuck, where the fuck IS my free Will? Even if I am starseed retired, cant i make a Happy living activity from anything? Where IS my free Will, my creator power, my multidimensional being? So... I dont understand and i think that I am making everything Up, that Spirituallity IS just that the afterlife but nothing for this Life now. Therefor Spirituallity has no effect in this Life, and there IS no such a thing... All the real life connection with It is useless?

Anyway, THANKs so much for your time and energy 🤍

@peggy-maria There are indeed more starseeds like you, follow this lead, EA spoke about it

https://elizabethapril.com/forum/🗣️-general-discussion/key-holders-question-about-what-april-said-about-key-holders-mission-in-her-latest-discussions/#post-30751

@lighthealer_arkie you are so sweet  🤍

Yes I am aware of the newly found starseed mission as the keyholder. I have all the symptoms, yes, but being in a stuck loop doesnt make you a keyholder.

We are superpowerfull beings Who can co-create and use our psychich habilites except for the keyholders because we cant access any of that? So why did I wake Up? To feel frustrated and desempowered all my Life? It still doesnt make sense...

All my LOVE to anyone reading this 🤎

@peggy-maria It's a nice discussion here. Not sure where it will lead, I'm sure many are reading this. Yes imo Spirituality is having trust without proof. That is, the opposite of fearing something happening. So, i trust the universe fully to get a parking spot whenever I'm driving. I trust the healing power of the human body when my children get ill. I trusted/manifested EAs course System Override when i took the 'evil' shot unvoluntarily back in 2021. Without spirituality my fears would have made me get physical side effects, and relational problems. I did a lot of cord cutting and clearing for that. Thanks to spirituality. Question, what happens when you randomly open EAs book You're not dying You're just waking up, at this moment, taking in mind your question about spirutuality. The chapter the page... does it resonate right now?

@lighthealer_arkie everything about EA resonates deeply... 

But even if It resonates It doesnt mean It is good or true, IS It? 

I can go with faith and what resonates with some things and for some time, but not forever and with everything.

If faith IS enough for you, then Spirituallity IS good for you. Faith IS a wonderfull allie. 

ONLY faith IS not enough for me anymore, and I dont think Spirituallity should only be based in It. I think is a play between gathering information, faith, what resonates, letting It sinc in in silence, asking for guidance, putting everything together to jungle your life, experience, try, see and learn, and all over again and again. There are important missing pieces for me... Even if I resonate.

Consuming info, resonating, small synchronicities like repeated numbers and random info in my head, and faith was enough for me. I has given me strength to keep going. But not getting anywhere, and not seeing more, has led to a crisis, where i am questioning all my Deep Deep beliefs. And It is really painful...

@peggy-maria Still wondering, what exactly are your goals or wishes. In real life. What if you had a magic wand, and could create everything you desire, what would it be? What would be your ultimate proof that Spirituality exists?