Should we trust any word-based thought that arises in our mind? If so, why should we?

My dad told me that Adyashanti once said something like, “I know I am enlightened because I do not believe a single thought that arises in my mind.” 

I experience thoughts in the form of words all the time! I have long wondered where these words come from! God? Source? Our collective higher Self awakening to its true nature for the good of all beings? My guides? Archangels? Aliens? Dark entities all the way up and down the chain of command?

I have experienced no convincing, replicable method of consciously creating a cooler and more loving life for myself and all beings! I don’t know how to interact with or interpret or even “correctly respond” to the words that arise in my head! If Mother Mary says “hello” in my thoughts, “I” could then “will” the response, “Who is the Self who considers responding? Who am I?” But where is the will who wills my will and when and why and how? It feels like every person’s answer is simply their own ways of defending their own ego’s private model of heaven! And that’s so beautiful and just as I feel it should be in a lawful, loving universe, but then I find myself compulsively throwing shade at every spiritual teacher in creation! So back into the mundane humanity I go!

I have seen no auroras, no aliens, no past lives, no lasting certainty I have any useful psychic abilities at all! I feel I might be stuck in a dimension of pure curiosity with zero manifested magic! Nothing cool or supernatural except the endless questions like little puzzles! My ego bawls like a child for a fun new game! Who is it that keeps thinking all these words into my head? I feel therein might lay the key to awakening!

My limited understanding has been that even the Buddha under the Bodhi tree simply observed all of Maya pretending to be it wasn’t actually simply Buddha, too! In other words, all experience is simply us “talking to ourselves in our own heads!” Just as Jesus is said to have turned down Satan’s offer for worldly powers, I worry and simultaneously kind of love the idea that my ego craves every psychic power and scrap of informational data all at once! So I feel stuck with this extreme counter-conclusion that the truly, “most” enlightened thing to do would be to follow (my mind’s interpretation of) Patanjali’s advice and ignore every Siddhi that arises and never even search for them or acknowledge them!

Anyways, I hope this made any sense and wasn’t too rambling! Thanks for writing “You Aren’t Dying, You’re Just Waking Up,” EA, it was the best book I’ve ever read! And I think I might have been trapped in Borges’ Library of Babel reading every book in creation in a parallel timeline or something, so I do not give that compliment lightly!