Both of raised catholic.i find this fascinating

I listened to the guided meditation connect with the gfl.when I got to the door no numbers no letters just white light squared on the door, same with the sauser open go in inside is nothing but light arrive at the destination and I see beings large glowing with the same light.it was amazing. I watched a video you said cosmic self is masculine. I'm a man. Libra fire dragon ruling planet is Venus feminine energy. Does it mean my cosmic is feminine