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What is my purpose? I know I have tried to activate my spiritual aspect of myself through discernment. Example, I know the catholic church is not, what they proclaim to be, growing up as a catholic, I was exposed to the human frailty of imperfection and cruelty, the church! So I know, I do not adhere to their teachings. I've tried joining other religions, to see if they had answers for me. But once again, I found myself more confusion rather than making more sense out of the whole spiritual thing. I had even gone as far as reading the bible on my own to seek out answers. I thought to myself, maybe if I only focused on what Jesus had to say in the bible, I would get clarity in finding what I needed to get me on my path to enlightenment. I wanted to know who is GOD? What is GOD? Why are we here? What is the purpose? I was always looking outside of myself. It never occurred to me to look within myself for answers. The first solid inclination I had to tell me I had more of a ability to sense things, other than my familiar five senses, was a night I spent sleeping on a couch in the living room of a woman's mobile home. I will never forget that night!
It was a woman I was introduced as a christian lady, who was a widower and was married to a pastor. You may ask, what was I doing there? Well, I was following a need, I thought at the time, of wanting companionship. A mate. Someone I would marry. I thought since I have prayed for it, this woman was the answer to my prayers. I was there to get to know her. Well, that first night after meeting her, she offered for me to spend the night on the couch since I was along way from home so I did. In sleepy there, I had what I would call a nightmare. I dreamed I was being attached by this entity that looked like a muscular body of a man, with a head of an eagle, and having eagle like claws for feet. It was trying to open my mouth with it's claws to come into my body through my mouth. At that moment, I had woken up with fear. But before I could make any sense of the nightmare meant, I felt this evil overwhelming presents engulfing me. The presents was so intense, it felt like my soul was telling me with an alarming yell, this thing is bad! It is very bad! At the same time I was experiencing this sensation, the two motion sensors lights located in both front and back doors of the mobile home, were going off and on throughout my sensation. This was no longer a nightmare. I was fully awake! But the only sense that was giving me any information of what was going on was the sense I had just discovered I had. My inner sense. I couldn't see anything. I couldn't hear anything. I couldn't smell anything. I couldn't touch anything. But I could profoundly feel it's presents and it was there all over me. So the only thing that I knew how to do being frighten was to start praying for this thing, whatever it was, to go away. I started praying the our father payer. Over and over again, hoping this thing would leave. I don't remember how many prayers I prayed but in about 45 minutes or so. That entity finally was gone from my presents. And the sensors lights stopped turning off and on.
Needless to say. This experience showed me three things. The first was, there are things that exist we cannot see. Second, I had discovered I had the ability to sense things I could not see. And Third, the most important, if Evil exists, which I knew now that it did, then God had to exist as well. Because you cannot have one without the other. Don't know how I knew this but I did! I guess the same way we all learn things in this lifetime. Whether by the hardships I've endured throughout my life, or the times I've felt so engorge with joy and happiness of what I could only describe as elation. These two opposite examples of my experiences have shown me, you have to have BOTH in order to know the difference. So this is why I have concluded and incorporated this new experience into my being as part of my lesson in this lifetime in showing me things I was not aware of.
Why do I use this word, Lifetime. I have also concluded that we as human beings are eternal beings. Our essence which some people may call soul, spirit, consciousness, mind, thought, are and will forever be, part of, and connected to, what have been labeled now, Source. The word Source has replaced my definition of GOD. An energy of love that is not understood but is only felt by the lucky ones which have worked so hard to be awaken to a higher level of human existence. I truly believe this is the ultimate purpose of being in this life form. An Ant like species that is evolving into a GOD like being as a human being? Who would have thought that could be possible?
We are all living in exciting times Ladies and Gentleman! Don't Focus on distraction but rather your PURPOSE!
I KNOW by EXPERIENCE. WILL POWER CAN HAVE A TREMENDOUS OUTCOME ON PURPOSE! Focus your will power on purpose..........Focus your thought and soul on outcome...... Imagine LOVE being everywhere....... The gratitude of service will open up doors. Knowing you made a difference for the better is a goal that can be achieved.
@ray-3 Thank you for sharing! It’s evident that you’ve undertaken a deep exploration of spirituality and self-discovery, which has led to meaningful realizations about purpose and connection to Source. Your insights into focusing on purpose, love, and service resonate strongly.
Embrace your experiences as guiding lights, and stay open to the growth that comes through both challenges and joys. ✨
Thank you Arkie and Lyn.
Yes, I have learned a lot through my Challenges and Joys! It has helped me hone in on my ability to discern. I've have not only learned by experiences, but by meeting different wonderful and gorgeous souls of people in my life. Seeing first hand what Loving Souls they are. Their examples of being, living, speaking, have influenced me to become a better loving person. Since we are all connected with Source, which I think we are, I have concluded. I can see Source Love Energy breaking through to many of us as we mature and grow in existence. Love comes in many forms. Some are subtle. Others are profoundly direct, not to mention all the examples in between. Nevertheless, it is there. Source is there. And it lives through us. We are the extensions of Source. Unfortunately, Some people, still souls connected to Source even if they are not aware of it, are still in the dark, and are blinded from all the chaos around them. Whether through the Tube which is TV, or the pocket computer which is the Cell Phone. Those People have not learned to discipline themselves long enough to filter what they are expose to. At least to a point to allow them, to hone in on their own discernment ability. You can't listen to a radio station with clarity if there is too much static noise in between. The Radio station being your inner self and the static noise being your mind which has been exposed to all the chaos. You have to clean up the frequency in order to get clear reception. The Filter is Discernment. Which comes with Light. Not Darkness alone.