Waking up during sleep paralysis

@marjoleine-web Thank you Lane. That was powerful and really touched me and I did what you said and it was emotional. Going to take some persistence, focus and strength.  I am writing down some different prayers because it's hard to even think of what to say sometimes when I'm all caught up.  Working on getting all this stuff organized so I canbe more effective. I might have to make a schedule with alarms and all..ha  Because I have no structure or responsibilities really except to myself and my cat right now.  So I tend to not do much if I don't have to.  But this is a have to.  I just watched the Live GFL EA did.  It was good.  The last message she has is for everyone and it was from the galactic federation collective this time and not just one being like usual.  They said pretty much is go time for us starseeds.  And they gave her an image of fire inside of us being ignited or that has been ignited.  It's interesting becaue on the cosmic awakening site I joined, one of the women also said that she saw a fire inside of me, like my stomach area, but she didn't know what it meant.   EA mentioned solar plexus or heart area.   I wanted to add this picture I took a couple days ago.  It was strange because it was dark and cloudy out and I saw a rainbow within it. Usually that's like after the rain and the suns comes out.  Maybe that means something.  There's a rainbow evne within a dark cloud. 

@rainyangel Oh! I'm happy to know that you felt something that touched you. Perseverance is key here. I used to be very discouraged when I started practicing focus because there was always SO MUCH going on in my mind and I could barely focus one second. But as I kept bringing back my focus on what I wanted to focus on, I realized that it became easier. If it's hard in the beginning, don't be hard on yourself, just keep practicing without judgment. Each and every time you bring back your mind into focus, it's a victory. And every victory counts and that's how it'll become easier. Be proud of yourself for every single second of focus.

Writing down some different prayers in advance is a good idea! You can also speak to your guides as you would speak with a friend. I'm always talking to them even when I'm not practicing my focus or meditating. I used to be very formal with D and J and D used to find it quite funny and told me that I could chill a little. I've been talking to them for years now even if it's just to tell them that the song I'm listening to is really cool or crack a joke or sometimes I simply choose them as my interlocutors when I'm thinking about something. They don't always participate in the conversation but I know they're there and we've developed a secret language made of very specific synchronicities and these synchronicities happen on a regular basis so I know they're listening to me.

We tend to see our guides as "higher" than us, but I've come to realize that we are the same. The only difference between them and us is the experience we have  chosen. They chose to remain in a higher vibrational frequency and remember Source and have access to a lot more conscious awareness and we chose to incarnate in 3D, forget about Source and navigate with a limited conscious awareness. But at the end of the day, we are all the same. So there's no need to be super formal with them. BUT, if being formal with them is something very important to you, then don't change the way you interact with them. What I'm pointing out here is that they won't feel disrespected if you act "more casual" with them. It also depends on the guide. I interact with D like he's my best buddy in the entire multiverse. But I interact differently with J and Fen because we interact less but I'm still quite casual with them. You will find how you like to interact with them and you might be surprised (in a positive way) at how they answer you. Guides DO have a sense of humour too! 😉

I also watched the latest GFL and found it quite interesting. It was also very encouraging. Maybe there's a link between what the woman told you about the fire inside of you and the rainbow you photographed. All the colors of the chakras are in the rainbow (or vice versa). You can use this beautiful picture to cheer you up and remind yourself that no amount of "dark" will ever be able to obscure the light. Do you use Spotify for music? I've come across an incredible album the other day and the lyrics keep blowing my mind every time I listen to it. The group name is "Beautiful Chorus" and the album's title is "Rhythmic Meditation". If you have Spotify I highly recommend it to you! All the lyrics are very simple but they're mind-blowing! I feel like they're teaching me. I'll attach a picture of the album cover so you can find it easily. If you listen to it and enjoy it, please let me know! I can't get enough of it. It truly lifts my spirit and brings me a lot of joy! Never thought I'd find something like that on Spotify!

Peace be with you, friend.

@marjoleine-web Thanks Lane, I'll totally look up the music.  I just did a 55 minute mediation where I was in my own created temple in the earth with Lady Nada and ascended master Mary.   I listen to Divine Light Meditation. or Steve Nobel.  I felt so much more peaceful afterwards. I did yoga first, which is a miracle. But I want to everyday and meditate like five times per day..ha  It's way over due..  Thank you for your kind words.  You are a beautiful soul as well.  I'm glad to meet you here. This forum is so cool, we get to support each other with all these things that most people aren't talking about at all.  Nobody I know in person anyway.........I just listened to the music I'm in love thank you!!!  I haven't really listened to music much in a long time, not sure why, thought it might be triggering, but i can be so healling and helpful.  Just wanna listen to new stuff, not anything I've heard in the past.  I found this guy named Ulver like a couple days ago, he is very interesting.