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I am not really sure how to summarize what I am experiencing or what it even is, so I guess I will start from the beginning. A few days ago on April 17th I was experiencing health anxiety related to chest pain when I laugh and breath super heavily. I was at my girlfriends house this night who I love with all my heart and I decided to try some weed edibles for like the second time in my life. I believe I took more then I should have (it was probably close to one whole edible like 40mg?) and I ended up having a pretty bad panic attack and was able to calm down after about 20 minuets. Not long after I calmed down I got pretty bad harmful thoughts that appeared in my mind about stabbing my girlfriend, this caused my head to have like a severe cold sensation is the best way I can explain this. Now ever since this day I keep fixating on this intrusive thought and its giving me severe anxiety throughout my whole body and I even result to looking up stuff on the internet related to this stuff for reassurance. I have a hard time enjoying time with my girlfriend now because of these thoughts and anxiety and its literally tearing me to pieces. Tomorrow I have an appointment with my doctor regarding all of this. I hope this was an okay place to share this, I am just not sure how I went from being such as happy person to this anxiety filled crazy person. I don't remember a time where I have felt this low and I am not sure what to do. I feel like this was almost my last hope and any advice or thoughts on this post will be appreciated. I wish everyone here well in this life!
Hi, Gavin. I am very sorry you are going through this. It's been a crazy time and perhaps all the energies have brought up some past life issues or intense emotions that have not been dealt with. In 2022, I was dealing with grief that I did not know how to process, so I kept ignoring it and trying to push it away. I started to have panic attacks for the first time and I had a couple of episodes where my body was shaking uncontrollably. One day I just felt that I could not breathe. I went to Urgent Care because I seriously believed I was dying or my lungs were failing. When the doctor said I was completely fine I calmed down a little and realized it was the months of pushing down severe grief that caused this reaction. So letting myself cry hysterically and share with my loved ones what I was feeling and experiencing almost immediately made me feel better. After that, I was able to start meditating a little at a time and do light breathing exercises that helped. Also, a technique called EFT tapping can sometimes help the body ground and relax the nervous system.
After you try these light methods, I would recommend visualizing yourself in a pure white light bubble, breathing in light, and breathing out dark/shadows (which represent your intrusive thoughts) and then declaring you transmute all energy around you to white light/unconditional love and send it to Mother Earth to be recycled for the highest and best good of all. You can also search EA's videos or youtube for other grounding techniques that you may like better.
I hope this helps. I am sending love and light to you as well.
@gcarson123 @janae-leigh Good advise Janae is giving here. Almost certain the frequency of the weed caused some holes in your aura. Letting the entities with their bad feelings and bad thoughts in. I would do grounding exercises too, and clean your aura. Start with breathing exercises, meditate and use some burning (Californian) sage, like EA does. I wish you strength and sending you ❤ and healing!
@janae-leigh Thank you so much for your response, I will definitely try these things!
@lighthealer_arkie If the doctor tries prescribing medication, would this be a bad route to take do you think?
@gcarson123 There is no good or bad, only what suits you best. If i were you i would try the meditations and breath work first, do a good physical detox with chlorella et al, lots water. And if that doesn't help you, you keep the meds for backup. Personally i don't like meds but you decide here. Maybe use it for a short period to get you through the worst time? Search for natural medications that do the same as the chemical ones.
Sending you lots of love and white light
@gcarson123 Sending you with pure white love and good vibes❤️✨
As I was the annunaki Enlil in a past life I was also the hybrid being lucifer was one of my incarnations.i demanded these dark entities to back off and stop attacking my cosmic brothers and sisters said attack me if you dare. Not sure if it helped or if they listened but I've noticed they didn't come at me.sending more love and light energy.
@gcarson123 Hi Gavin - I can tell you what happened. Weed (and other drugs and alcohol) weakens the auric shield around the body which then allows dark entities to enter your body and attach to it. There are several types of entities who can place negative intrusive thoughts in your mind. You cannot get rid of the thoughts; you must remove the entity. I have a checklist/test for entity attachment on my website. You can see the checklist by clicking here.
I've always been lucky smoking weed smoking weed 30 years now never once had a dark entity attach to me from weed. Especially always angry when I was younger weed helped me tremendously manage my anger. Now I smoke because I can not because I need to. Finding source December 14th 2022 pretty much washed this inner rage I was born with out of me
You can absolutely get rid of intrusive thought by utilizing your frontal lobe or cortex like a filter
@robinrais Perhaps this was a weak minded move, I don't know, but I ended up going to the doctors and was prescribed Sertaline for six months. I had little faith in this, but to my surprise it has actually helped tremendously and allows me to continue onwards with little to no obsessing over the intrusive thoughts I was having. Perhaps the thoughts will come back if I come off this medicine and don't work on what is happening?