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I've been feeling very despondent lately. Sad, tired, hopeless...going to bed asking to "take me home." It's been rough. Like, really really rough. I have this feeling of the wind being knocked out of me all of the time. Even trying to be positive takes too much energy. Like, what's the point? I know we're supposed to have this energy of light and love, but when you don't even feel that for yourself, where can you go? I don't want to "play the game" anymore. I just want to skip to the end and be done. Ethically speaking, I know taking things into your own hands will bring about a lot more karma than I want to think about, but at the same time, many more years of "this" seems daunting and like a dark hole I can't crawl out of. I'm sure there are others that feel the same. As bad as this may seem, I'm hoping someone can relate and give me some pointers. I really feel at the end of my rope here.
Side note: Typical cliches will not be helpful. Sage advice is needed.
@justinsellers82 I really appreciate everything you said here. I will definitely look into the book you suggested. It is comforting to know that others know exactly what I am feeling. It has been a trying phase, but I have to keep hope that everything will work out, even if it seems like a distant and bleak concept.
I appreciate the light and love ❤️
@spiritwarrior All of that advice is helpful. I actually found a center close to me that provides a variety of tools, including reiki. I also did some candle gazing the other night to help in any way. I truly appreciate the sage advice and the time for you to care. Truly, appreciated. ❤️
@lynp-2 I appreciate the love, and I know different perspectives can help. Just hard to muster up another perspective at time. ❤️
@zazu2020 Thank you for posting. I've been considering exit points & these responses have helped me as well. You are not alone. Unconditional love to all. Grace & gratitude. 🩷
@square-peggy ❤️ ❤️ ❤️
@zazu2020 I knOw exactly how you feel and struggle with this often. Idont gave all of the answers but I have been practicing staying as present as possible and looking around at everything I do have and find gratitude in the little things and also lean into the discomfort rather than focus on how painful it is. Perspective sshiftseems to be the only time I get relief and having supportive, like-minded friends who understand. I know I am being guided because I asked for help today in the midst of my despair and heard EA mention a forum I didn't even know we had on here. So I came to share my pain in a post and saw yours and another who caught my eye. It was like reading my own words. This is what we must do when the darkness closes in. We aren't meant to do this alone. We are being brought together more and more now because we need eachother. If you need a friend, please reach out to me anytime directly if you feel comfortable. I was ready to fully give up 2 weeks ago. The thought lingers but I just keep using my tools, my support system, just like you did by sharing here with us. You helped me. Thank you. We are not alone.
Like your photo, Know this feeling, LET MY WINGS SUPPORT YOU, feel whatever comes up - it is OK, let it just bee, feel it, will it increase, will it change, will it decrease, will it stay my entire Life? Anny-way You are supported by the Universe, and by me (a soul who knows, and likes you) (strong male Energy, German, 049 51042)
@elishamajoyspicer Thank you for understanding where I'm coming from and the advice. It can definitely be rough and lonesome. I don't have a lot of family or friends who are awakened, they mostly just think I'm crazy and trying to find some meaning in something to distract myself. Not the case. The truth is, that ignorance is bliss. The more you know and are aware, the heavier it is. But, it's also amazing to be a part of something so profound and humanity changing - just wish others would get on board sooner.
Much light and love - I appreciate your friendship ❤️
@square-peggy ❤️
@zazu2020 I completely understand that. I have even questioned myself in this process and have had coaches that have implied that I am looking too much outside of myself. I get that to some extent but at the same time, I just want clarity and answers. Like, what now? What do I do with this information? Right now, I am just learning to embrace my human and trusting that the rest will follow. It is REALLY hard a lot of the time and I keep telling myself that's ok. It feels impossible sometimes watching people not see what we see. It will get better and the more I have leaned in, the more I have been led to different resources and communities with like minded people. Not a ton but I have 3 close friends now that are awakened that I speak to regularly outside of the forum. We have to stick together. The steps we need to take come one at at time, as much as I want to know all of the answers and all of the things NOW and YESTERDAY!! LOL You're not alone. Don't hesitate to reach out anytime. We are in this together. If you want to message me I am happy to share my phone number with you. Sending love and peace your way. ❤️
@zazu2020 I completely understand that. I have even questioned myself in this process and have had coaches that have implied that I am looking too much outside of myself. I get that to some extent but at the same time, I just want clarity and answers. Like, what now? What do I do with this information? Right now, I am just learning to embrace my human and trusting that the rest will follow. It is REALLY hard a lot of the time and I keep telling myself that's ok. It feels impossible sometimes watching people not see what we see. It will get better and the more I have leaned in, the more I have been led to different resources and communities with like minded people. Not a ton but I have 3 close friends now that are awakened that I speak to regularly outside of the forum. We have to stick together. The steps we need to take come one at at time, as much as I want to know all of the answers and all of the things NOW and YESTERDAY!! LOL You're not alone. Don't hesitate to reach out anytime. We are in this together. If you want to message me I am happy to share my phone number with you. Sending love and peace your way. ❤️
@zazu2020 you are okay, you will be okay; as hard as it feels, please trust that there is a reason, and a purpose. Be patient with yourself, and be kind, in moments of frustration, be the parent you wish you had - to yourself. It will get better. I promise.