Been wanting to not be here anymore and "go home"

Hey Laura,

I certainly can not promise any sage advice, however, I will promise to avoid cliches.

You are certainly not alone. I have felt for years like many days I am a corpse that I drag around going through the motions each time becoming more mondane and heavy.

In fact, I was in heavy denial, spiritually bypassing my way to a feigned facade of being ok and happy until I heard Oliver Anthoy's song I want to go home and broke down in tears. That is not a song recommendation but rather a reference to the point I realized how much I want to go home and how in denial I had been. You are most certainly not alone. Unforunately you already knew that so it may not help much to hear.

Feel free to disregard the following as I am highly aware that book recommendations can be the last thing one wants to recieve when energy is low and things fell so bleak, however, I did recently read a book by Pamala Kribbe that I found very healing that goes heavily into what she calls the cosmic birthing pain (The "home" we miss) and the "despondant phase" of transformation. Do with that what you will.

Ok, I take it back. Since I have arrived at the end and mustered no sage advice I must brake my promise and revent to an indulgence in one cliche and send you a big digital hug and wish you the best. Do know you are not the only one that feels like nothing but a big ball of love and light at all times here on earth especially during these times. I do wish I had a magic formula for you that was clean and easy to implement, however, I do not.

P.S - If you have any adversion to Christianity/Jesus that book has nothing to do with that and the title is misleading in that regard.

Like your photo, Know this feeling, LET MY WINGS SUPPORT YOU, feel whatever comes up - it is OK, let it just bee, feel it, will it increase, will it change, will it decrease, will it stay my entire Life? Anny-way You are supported by the Universe, and by me (a soul who knows, and likes you) (strong male Energy, German, 049 51042)

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-oKbIKBE894 bsstgap@gmail.com Germany 049 088821 51042

Highvibe music, be in nature, drink water, eat food with lots of prana... 

I honestly dont think this will take several years more, people may say i am nuts, but i expect source and the sun energies to lift us o 5D very soon.. 

You might have an entety making this even harder, you could consider this, if it feels possible you could then ask Archangel Michael to "please connect his energy to your energy, and please remove any and all enteties, low vibrational energies, spiritual parasites, demonic portals and attachments, low vibrational extraterrestial portals and attachments.. thank you, thank you, thank you. " This can be done i have understood. 

Do some clearing meditations where you go through your energy and just relax. 

Ask for a good healer to do this if needed. 

The energies coming in now from the sun and from our friendly gfl ships is SO high.. it can knock the wind out of you. We had a solar storm KP 8 yesturday that reached earth. (1 is normal and 9 is the highest ever.) My guides would prefer it if i just drank water and slept i think heh

I have been where you are, still i sometimes cry and ask if we can just go home now. Ask for help from your guides and Archangels, ask for them to show love. Tell them to let you sleep wrapped up in source light some nights.. it will help

listening to this one have helped me: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ud9Riv5p0hk&t=2142s

I am also longing to go "home" and my human is stuggling with life right now.  I find comfort in reminding myself that my soul chose to incarnate in this body and at this exact time.  I HAVE A PURPOSE to be here even though I have no idea what that purpose is.  So, I have decided to be GRATEFUL, enjoy every moment, feel all the feels and take the time to experience everything to the fullest...."good" or "bad".  

@zazu2020 Hi Laura,

To start off, I am not a therapist and this is not professional advice but as someone who has been in your shoes and felt those feels, I can try to "be here" for you and if you are ok with it, I can make some recommendations:

• Try getting reiki, maybe in person - there could be attachments or energy blocks
• add in yoga/qi gong for some type of movement, Yoga is good for body/mind and qi gong moves stuck energy
• an Akashic record reading may help, I performed a clearing for 21 days every day to remove the negative attachments in my aura (it helps for a little bit)
• perspective - changing perspective often helps. This one is not as easy i know.
• lastly, perhaps get some medical tests done? I recently had a bout of tests to figure out my issues, i found out i am copper deficient (it causes lots of neuro, fatigue and weakness issues). Not suggesting that is your issue but i never would have thought it was mine!

I hope that you just give yourself some grace. You are here for a reason, I wish i could be the one to tell you what that reason is. I am usually pretty good at pep talks, but this one i can tell i am failing 🙁

Remember, it will get better, this doesn't last forever.

@zazu2020 When you can't control what is happening in your life and feel hopeless while struggling, it's time to stop and take a step back. Challenge yourself to see things from a different perspective and focus on controlling how you respond to the events in your life.

Sending you a big hug and lots of love🥰

@zazu2020 Miss - I'm on EA com literally disclosing to the Public.  That all of you choose not to listen is completely on all of you.  That EA is failing to promote "me" is now carrying karmically on her and her admins. 

Read everything I left for you all here.  If that doesn't make you "feel better" nothing will

Have some blood tests might not be a bad idea. Or just ad more iron for a while and see?

I am a vegetarian and every once in a while i get really tierd cause i am not very good at beeing a vegetarian heh. Then i eat iron and i get a lot happier suddenly heh. 

Yes, may sound silly but sometimes we may have vitamin deficiencies (apart from what everybody said above). If able, try and get some basic labs done (and ask for Vit D, Magnesium, anemia related labs) also if doctor says ok for you to do so, take a multivitamin and Vit D, Magnesium supplements. Eat well, go out and get some sun. Pretty basic stuff I know, if everything else fails you may benefit from seeing a Psych doctor, sometimes we just need a little extra help to start feeling better❤️

Hi Laura, 

It's very cliche, sorry but i do want to send you ❤️ hug & I do wish you well!

Ascension IS extremely rapidly Approaching.  

Become Vegetarian 

Honor the Divine Virtues

You Will Enjoy This

@zazu2020 I could say so much about this topic as I've felt that way several times in my life and generally have a feeling of sadness that I'm always trying to figure out. I think when dopamine or serotonin are low it can also really take us to dark places, which I recently experienced when I tried to stop taking my fluoxetine. I feel a lot better on it and have also tried micro dosing and ketamine therapy. Some of those things may help with the extreme lows to at least give you the energy to seek out more info, solutions, reasoning, whether it be past life related, karmic or soul contracts, and get in touch with your guides for assistance. oh, I also had a session with Sharma ( https://shematsystems.com/) she can remove negative entities and teach you how to do it yourself going forward.

Sending you lot's of love and light energy.all great advice from everyone