So you are a retired starseed, now what?

@shivanitarksis I totally understand where you are at. Getting all the whispers to leave but not taking that action for xyz reasons. It's a hard choice. I ended up going through an experience with management that opened my eyes wide open and I knew it was time to go. Like I was being smacked. The whispers are easy to ignore and so are the smacks on the head because we question ourselves so much. I had no plan for my future when I left. I just KNEW it was time. And I got so much push back from management at work. I gave them a two month notice and every day for two months they threw offers at me to stay and kept asking me if I changed my mind. But I kept telling them it's best I go because my heart no longer cares about this place. They just didn't get it. I'm sure it was a shock because it just came out of no where. Well that's what they thought 🙂 You will know in your heart when it's time to really leave.  Big Hugs!

It's wonderful to read all of your perspectives and to realise that I am not the only one who has felt this way. It gives me hope!

As a natural empath, giver and lover, I was beginning to think that my lesson was to learn how to be hardier, so that I could protect myself from the world (as I loved it and felt distant from it, in equal measure). As much as I do need to find my voice, I'm delighted that I'm going to be able to let my natural traits shine.

After many years of trying to give myself a reason to be worthy, it's such a relief to feel that I'd been doing it all along, by just 'being'.

But I'm with you on that it's just weird concept to allow yourself to just exist, because it's like 'is this even working?!' ahah. I definitely agree and felt like I had more value, if I was busy or had 'plans'.

Additionally, I have never recovered from the covid slump and I am more recluse than ever before (especially working from home), which has been very mentally challenging.

But I now know that this was a necessary evil because without it, I wouldn't be here, typing these words. I've learned so much about myself and when I started to practice gratitude, despite being in the same situation, that's when I started to get signs.

I wish you all luck on each of your journey's and I can't wait for you to get the answers that you have been looking for. ❤️ 

@shivanitarksis Yes! Oh how I wish there was a manual for this too!!! This was the hardest belief for me to change.

I finally feel like it doesn't come up anymore. BUT it took years of working at it. There was so much undoing of beliefs when I quit my job. Every time I was confronted by this belief from myself or from others.. I would stop and remind myself this is a program and the external is still under this belief. Quit listening to the external. Rest is important so you have the energy to do what is in alignment with you.

When I read your comment I started to remember the feelings that came up every time I relaxed, every time I decided to go out and "be" in nature, every time I was like I need to go back to work to make money, I can't just do what brings me joy. I had a lot of I have to go go go and a lot about money come up. That I didn't have the right to relax, play, do something that doesn't earn a paycheck, etc.

A lot of undoing around worth, success, etc. What that really means. Because just like you said. Accomplishments of doing = Success.  We have been programmed that we have to accomplish xyz in order to EARN time to relax or play. When it's actually the opposite that helps us really accomplish what is important. And what I also realized is a lot of what we think we have to GET DONE really isn't important either.

When I think back on my journey I wish I would have documented more of the "how" I healed or changed beliefs. Most of what I did was just allowed myself to express the beliefs and emotions that would come up around all these things and then ask myself "Is this true?"

It was a consistent digging into and releasing.

Basically I started to catch the negative thoughts/beliefs that would pop up in my head.

Then I would question where this belief came from,

then I would ask if this was true,

and every time it came up again I would allow myself to express whatever I felt in the moment,

then I got to a place where I knew it was ME that decided that belief and that means I am the one that can change that belief.

I learned everything I'm experiencing originated from me. I allowed this or that. I now have to take responsibility to change that. That was hard to accept that LOL What do you mean this is my fault?! What do you mean I can no longer blame someone else for this or that? What do you mean I am not a victim? I think the hardest person in your life to forgive is yourself.

I was so mad at myself for creating these beliefs growing up. I finally realized you were a kid. You are looking at this from your from your 40 year old self. Of course you know a lot more now then you did then. Forgive that little girl. She was doing the best she could with what she knew. I did a ton of Little Shelly healing. Where I would go back to experiences and hug her. Most of our pain and beliefs come from childhood experiences and I believe it's important to go back to our younger selfs and discuss these moments to heal. I went back and gave that little girl so much love and support. What I wish I would have had back then. 

Man, our healing journeys are no joke. I remember one day where I just realized the accomplishment of this work. Like how meaningful this work was in order to grow into who we are supposed to become during this journey to accomplish our missions here. This is what we should be focused on. This is how we change this world for the better 🙂 I finally realized that THIS is true success. Even though the word "Success" makes me cringe because of the 3D meaning of it. This work is the most fulfilling. Then all you want to do is share your new frequency with others in the hope that it will trigger them to do their own inner work. 

I feel like I'm dumping so much in this feed. I felt inspired to respond to your statement. Because there really isn't a manual we can follow for most of this. 

Wow! The Buddha himself said that he doesn't know what happens after an enlightened master dies whose karma is completely destroyed, but we have "retired starseeds" who want to return to Andromeda Galaxy! Amazing!

@shelly-ahlschlager it’s something I know I don’t talk a lot about with others. I appreciate you sharing your experience and it’s comforting that other people are experiencing the same hurdles. 

I had a qhht session and I received the answer that this isn’t my last life time of earth but I feel exhausted and I saw a scene that I didn’t want to come to earth and it felt like other beings were asking me to come and I could sense a lot of resistance in my light body wanting to play this game again. I’m constantly evolving as new information comes in. You’re right this journey is no joke!!! 

@shivanitarksis Having a QHHT session sounds fascinating. I have listened to other people's experiences during these sessions. I have thought also that maybe I'm not a retired starseed but in a holding pattern at this time because there is something I am learning that I will be sharing in the future. The reason why I think this is I felt called to review my numerology report from several years ago and I saw in 2027 I was supposed to step into my leadership role.  I listened to EA's last coaching call and she was talking with a member about something similar and it resonated. I think a lot of us are just tired right now. I know I have been. So who knows. Glad you received some confirmation about your journey with the session. It's so easy to go back and forth. Sometimes I think instead of trying to figure it all out we just need to flow and allow whatever experience to happen. I feel like we are always trying to figure it out because "The Unknown" is scary LOL! Everything is going to play out the way it is supposed to. I think we would really have to go against what resonates with us to screw it up LOL! We just need to trust the process 🙂 Be patient and trust the process LOL Patience and Trust have never been my strengths... but I have improved in these areas 🙂

@shivanitarksis I've tried to do regression meditation and I've even tried to learn how to astral project, believing that will provide answers.
But I haven't actually looked at QHHT, in depth. I'm going to take a look, this evening! 😊