Share your awakening story?

@nickq1233 Thank you for always bringing up interesting topic😍

@nickq1233 Beautiful Nick!! Very inspiring too and good that you organized your journals and records in such a way that you could make this! Was really nice to watch.

@le-o-ns Thanks Leonie. 🙂 yeah, luckily I documented everything. Everything that happens is either time and date stamped or recorded that way in my journal. It’s nice to be able to look back. I forgot so much that’s happened. I couldn’t include all of it or my video would be way too long. It was therapeutic to go back and kind of re surfaced some of the earlier things that happened in my awakening. Like the ego death stuff and my relationship dynamic and impact it was having on the kids. Crazy times but it really feels like a past life now. Just so much has changed. Reality is so different for me now than it was 3 years ago. Crazy. 🛸 👽 ❤️ 💡 

Leonie, you should share whatever you’re comfortable it’s sharing about your awakening?

When did you awaken? I know this already, but for the forum? 

@lynp-2 Hey Lyn:) Wanna share any details on your awakening? Like when you started waking up? 🙂

Hi Nick, again, great topic.

Not exactly just a look at my awakening process, ended up more like something that converges into an introspective look at my own thinking and observations about how other people might think about spiritual things/energy/the universe however you can define it.

I woke up somewhere in the midst of age 14, it must've been 2015/2016 then..? I remember it still. I was scrolling through youtube in the recliner chair in my family's living room on my laptop when I stumbled across a Steven Greer video. He was describing his experiences with the secret government (Idk what else to call it) and negative aliens I think from the 70s? I was 14 and believed it readily, the concept of UFOs... Don't know why but it just made sense to me, or my critical adult mind had not yet developed at this age, fortunately. Then I remember him saying, "They're all positive." about aliens after receiving a question from someone in the audience about them. Not sure what I think on that. I've had some negative experiences in my childhood and in my teens during 2017 that were either entities or aliens in nonphysical form or both. Maybe they were just entities, I just cannot recall it enough. I hate being uncertain about things. I think it drives my mind up a wall not to know for certain about things. I definitely had a telepathic attack by a grey alien once though, but I think that was outside orbit, not on earth, because I got an image of a huge, black starship in space. The attack lasted for maybe three days and it was intensely uncomfortable mentally and emotionally speaking. These strange symbols, creepy as **** visions and all that. 

I remember after that initial Steven Greer video I found a spiritual forum somewhat like this one, it was called starseeds.net. It was very popular, but it was shut down sometime after my kundalini/dark night event. That forum felt like a sanctuary to me, in a way. Those were good days.

A lot of different experiences came before it shut down, mostly in the form of vivid visions. I remember seeing elementals come to me in visions, and I was very into the fey and elves and that area of beings. I do remember having at least empathy to Vega or Lyra, but I can't remember very well. I also had this very real calling to the ocean. When I went into the ocean, after that day in it I would go to sleep and I'd feel the waves calling me back to them, I'd see visions of the shore and the moonlight, it felt so blissful and peaceful and like it was pulling me back into it, into the water. I felt loved by the ocean, I remember. I remember seeing various visions of aliens, probably, too. I remember drawing some. I would constantly see a reptilian eye from time to time whenever I had my eyes closed, and still do on occasion today. Don't know why about that, still. I remember reading the Emerald Tablets by Thoth... or some variation of that name. I'm trying to remember it all back then. I was so young and everything just felt okay and normal. I constantly miss that now. 

These days I don't seek out information about aliens, spiritual knowledge, and instead learn through my own experiences. I think I definitely have a discerning enough mind to filter through the experiences I have, whether they are truly negative or positive or not or how this energy is being received to me... how energy works I guess. My mind just seems to shift in that direction, how the energy I am receiving 'works' and why it appears this way to me when I experience it. Shifts in the energy, tweaks, nudges in certain directions in my thinking I assume, and the way time speeds up for me sometimes, the way the world seems clearer or more fuzzier at times to me. I think it's because it's all the mixing with my human consciousness, my emotions and thoughts with my spirit guide's consciousness, their emotions and thoughts and their energy. After the kundalini I developed maybe all four clairs, I am not sure, not thinking of them all at the moment. Definitely clairsentience and clairaudience. The way they, my spirit guides feel the world is so different from mine, being on earth in the 3D when they're way up there... even then it seems like I'm only getting glimpses into how they feel. It's such a vast difference, truly. I think that escapes me sometimes or no, all the time, how BIG the universe is. Must be so much better, feel so much better to be on their end than this bleak, small, and wonderless/magicless world I see and feel. That's at least what I can say for sure about how I experience it.

Compared to filtering out my own experiences and then going into the very convoluted mess that is spirituality information in general on the internet is not something I feel like doing, or feel drawn to do. Maybe that's a very cynical approach, maybe I've just had bad experiences with it in the past (I have, now that it comes to mind), but maybe if I looked I would be drawn to certain topics and find what 'resonates' with me. Still don't understand that word very well. I feel like we jump on it because we want to feel something good and don't have enough self-awareness to recognize that it is our ego that wants to think this about us, attach these labels or whatever it may be... However, when I read some of Dolores Cannon's material some months back, one of the spirits she spoke to through her hypnotized client said that they believed, "there are no accidents in the universe'' so maybe even if we incorporate information from the internet that we like and want to adopt it and bring it into our identity or mind, like being a certain starseed for example without being told through real psychic experience of our own, maybe that isn't an accident either. Maybe the ego isn't all that helpful, not even sure how to define the ego even though I've come across good definitions before, but maybe even through the ego we can be guided to information... Now as I say it aloud it seems all to obvious to me that of course we can. I am too cynical. I can feel the emotions in my peripheries of my guides smiling at me in a laughing way, without laughing, as if they are all too familiar with how cynical I can be.

I have become too numb or just empty and have forgotten what resonating feels like and maybe how common it is. I don't know that I've resonated with anything in years. I can't bring to memory what it might have felt like, if I did at all ever resonate with something. One other thought, I just think all the big voices in spirituality and UFOs... Like Steven Greer or Corey Goode, they all say different things that conflict and even openly denounce each other, it frustrates me as I cannot figure out who is really telling the truth. Guess I would need to develop my intuition more or go to my guides in a serious fashion to find out. Or figure out how to 'resonate' again, with what is true to me or not. Or just forget about them altogethor and not worry about it, which I have been doing. 

And if you happened to read all of that... thank you for listening to my thoughts, lol.

I could get into the first two years of my post-awakening maybe. It'd definitely count as shadow work, a great deal of it, given that 2017 was when my dark night started after a kundalini experience in my root chakra began. I have it all written out, but I'd need to edit it because at the time I wrote that I was a lot more skeptical of spirituality and had lost a lot of my belief in it. Not sure if I should include it in a thread you have made about shadow work, or make it a separate one altogether. It is very long. 

Anyway, this was fun to voice and was also therapeutic for me, thank you again for bringing up the topic Nick. 

@abby14 Wow. You woke up early. 14. Interesting Dr Greer pulled you in. He’s done really good work. Gotta give it to him. You came to reality fast being that young. Yeah, there are some negative ones. Like you mentioned. Or was. I was abducted as a child too. Those memories sucked to surface. Shadow work:) it’s different now though. Our reinforcements have arrived. It’s all positive ETs. We still have the cabal pretending to nefarious ETs. But that’s a different story all together. 

I feel you on the grey experience. Psychic attacks are a thing as well. Are you doing your daily protections for your energy field? To shield you from low vibrational, negative and parasitic energies, entities, attachments or beings? We can invoke Arch Angel Michael to provide a sphere of protection around us. We have to do it daily though and sometimes a couple times a day. Depending . I’ve had those days. I’ll call in all planes North, East, South, West, Above so Below. Arch Angels protecting me from all directions. 

I feel you on the dark night and kundalini. Been there. ❤️ ❤️‍🩹 Your connection to elementals. That’s right. So you have prior incarnations as an elemental most likely? Being from Lyra , Vega ❤️‍🩹:(

You may have some aquatic galactic lineage as well. If you want, maybe  Listen to the below link at 33 minute mark, maybe it’ll resonate with you. You’ll want to fast forward it to the light language at 33 minutes. It’s a Lemurian aquatic light language activation. You’ll want to wear headphones:) a real common lineage for someone describing the things that you are is Lyran. After Vega we split all over to Pleiades, Arcturus, Andromeda and other places. Had a bunch of wars like Lyra, Orion, Alpha Centauri etc. Blew up 2 planets 🪐 and now we are here:) About to ascend to the 5th dimension. We have some elemental incarnations too as a collective. Our Lyran element here. 

https://youtu.be/M6COBosx_mU

Your psychic abilities are flipped on. You can tell, just gotta learn how to use them. At first it’s difficult to discern between our thoughts and the thoughts we receive. After a while though we find our ability to still the mind long enough to start being intentional about what we want to explore. Are you listening to third eye frequencies? 

@nickq1233 

I do ask for protection in all forms from my spirit guides, star family, etc... (A whole lot of them lol) regularly whenever the thought occurs to me to say so. I don't feel like I am getting energetically attacked anymore and I feel very surrounded by positive forces, like.., I am slowly believing I am safe and protected. My guides/star family have told me I am. It's just a matter of believing fully for me.

Mm, probably, on being incarnate as an elemental before. But I feel more connected to elves, as I once had a very vivid and large vision of an elven woman with long black hair staring down at me (I felt like I was in a wooden chair, looking up at her) and she had an angry expression on her face towards me. Her features were very delicate and pointed. Just the other day actually I had an experience of a male elven being who was very high vibrational and loving, full of light, speak to me. I felt he was just curious about me, and decided to connect. He had long brown, straight, hair and had a circlet of glowing light around his forehead/head, like a crown kind of, but it was more elegant. In fact, his whole being was radiating with light, white and golden. It was very interesting.

I listened to the link w/ headphones, and wow, it's been a long time since i've listened to light language. Forgot how beautiful it is. When I heard the first words of the light language I immediately smiled despite myself and it's like I knew something within myself, claircognitively speaking, but I don't know what. Something in me activated, and throughout the video as I kept listening, until it ended, I held the same feeling. I got the image of the word Orion in my head, so maybe Mintaka?

Thank you so much for sharing that with me. I have always loved dolphins, watching them and listening to them has always made me feel safe. I am hearing my guides say, "You are safe" to me right now, and I actually believe it, or feel like my feelings of fear are allayed. Wow. Very profound experience for me, at least moreso than usual. Thank you again for sharing this with me. I need to listen to light language more! lol.

I usually listen and have playing in my bedroom 528 hz or lower, because I tend to get ungrounded if I go higher than that. I will experiment though and try out listening to third eye frequencies, whilst holding a grounding crystal. 🙂 

Thanks for reading and replying Nick. I always look forward to responses you make, they are always interesting 🙂