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Hello I have been on my spiritual journey for about a year and then my father passed away 2 months ago. Since his passing so many things have been happening and I have been searching for answers. I started meditated and in my meditations I will have a clear vision come to me and its clearer than watching a movie but just as soon as I focus on it, it disappears. This seems to happen with a lot of things. I have had spiritual experiences my whole life and I feel that I have always blocked them and now that I am seeking it I feel they are all blocked. I feel that i may have psychic and mediumship abilities and not really sure what else but I need help navigating everything. I feel really lost and confused. I have also started automatic writing and everything just flows but most times i dont even know where to go with that. Anyone who can help me with my meditation issue and navigating everything would be wonderful. Thanks and Love to you all! -Katy
So sorry for your loss.Next time you meditate try not to focus on it don't think about.it took me till may when I found frequency healing medication. Dr. Wanted to put me on medication I said that a negative ghost rider.honestly I wasn't sure if I'd ever recover from seeing my best friend, brother had hung himself and I was the first one to find him when I got off work.i got a call his ex saying something was wrong.he always had major depression.you still probably have trauma you don't know about yet or thought you dealt with.I've been there. months might not be enough healing time.i found with awakening and activation messages take longer to download at first then as you become more skilled the quicker it is. Everyone's abilities are different.my strength seems to be in the dream state or spirit realm.
Ohh my buddy did that in January
@madisons513 Sorry for your loss! You can check EA's How to Become Psychic workshop. This workshop harness your psychic abilities: https://elizabethapril.com/product/webinar-how-to-become-psychic/
@broseff-1976-jfgmail-com Sorry for that painful experience Joseph. I can only imagine what that's like. hugs
@madisons513 All I can come up with is when we try to use our brain things seem to disappear. Let it come up as it comes up without trying to control but yes we control basically by setting the intention and then trusting in the process and in what we receive. It should get more clear to you eventually. I think it might be more about awareness and consciousness and less about thinking about or focusing cuz that's like action instead of reception. This is only my take on it from only what I have experienced. I have a hard time with that as well. Usually I've noticed it in dreams where I'll be flying and try to go a certain way and wake up or things go dark. Or if I try to see things too hard in lucid dreaming or try to do things things tend to go black where I can't see. Like trying to run with your legs in a dream. You don't go anywhere..ha I think the navigation is the intention and then trusting what comes up and allowing and awareness of it. I don't know if that helps a little.