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Hey members...
I wanna share my story... I found EA about 5/6 years ago and it resonated sooo deeply with me... Last year I made the decision to find out what unconditional love really feels like. This springtime I got some kind of feeling (not a vision) of Jesus. I was raised catholic, got out of church at 16 cause I feel that (espacially the catholic church) there is so much going wrong with these systems... Jesus always set a smile on my face when I tune into this frequency... To put this story as short as possible - I came across some kind of fundamental christians on youtube etc. and listened to a lot of testimonies especially "New age to Jesus" etc...
I was in shock. The feeling my searching was based on was so intense that I couldn't deny that it happened, when I felt "Jeus" I felt so calm, so free, so in peace...But this videos turned my life upside down. I am on a "starseed way" since I can think, was into white magic and nature, worked as a shaman, did Yoga, energywork, all the things. All the things that are sinful, wrong etc. in that world I discovered there...
(To put it into perspective my last year was very intense. We moved, live as a patchwork family community, my relationship got so difficult due to so many patterns I am obviously still in so I was/am in a low self esteem and very much searching for something to help me put myself together and get my power back...)
Soooo I questioned everything, everything I was, knew, did... Totally lost myself, while thinking I found it, that I know with Jesus really know the way. I missed that I was thinking a lot out of fear, I missed that I was trying to simplify this complex multidimensional reality... I started judging people something people would never say about me... Still couldn't leave EA cause I feel so connected to her/to you here... But a lesbian new age medium is the pure evil in this world. In a sense you EA helped me to find my way back to myself, because I couldn't deny my feeling about you that is pure authenticity, pure love and courage. After a few month I stopped my creator account (the old one with the store credit 😫) and left this platform.
Took in more testimonies, was very impressed by testimonies like "muslim to jesus" etc...
I talked with a lot of friends and they slowly got me into questioning this "newborn me" again so I saw that I acted out of fear, depression, burn out...
There is more to say but to keep it short 😆
My question here is could this be something of a spiritual attack (not from Jesus, still love this guy, love his energy and still wanna follow his frequency like all the years before as well) --- what do you think about this?
Slowly integrating all what happened, so I take my time to reintegrate here as well as a seeker for now...
Love, Christa
Jesus is amazing.i have met people who got rid of dark entities just by saying his name
In my opinion, God Consciousness does not judge. It is only us that judge us at the end of our lives. And we are definitely not to judge one another. For if Source doesn't, who are we too? We are all one. And if you find something in another human being you do not love, or that you love with conditions (I love her, but only if she is not lesbian) that is the universe showing you where YOU need work. All of us are made differently, so we can learn compassion from one another. And yes, all of us are made in God's image (The Frequency of Love). Every single one of us. So that the individual that judges, can figure out how to love ALL.
Signed: a queer, disabled, friend of black transgender women, academic, who would give you the shirt off of their own back & give their life to protect you. Even if we agreed on nothing. I'm far from perfect! But I do love you, and EVERYONE here & out in the world, the universe & the multiverse with my whole heart.
I send you peace, knowledge, healing, growth, and DIVINE intervention! Much love & respect, dear one! 🕊🌎🩷🧚🏼♀️
I was also raised in a catholic house with possibly the most strict parents who still go to catholic church in the universe. It makes perfect sense now why I incarcerated with them. intentionally designed to purposely have me go down a certain path going through certain human emotions stuff like that.my soul is the annunaki Enlil and I have had many incarnation but this is my first as human why it took alittle over 40 years to be comfortable as a human. I remember those ccd classes when you get the confirmation the first time you eat the bread. Mostly all the kids would through are pencils at the ceiling because if you had good aim they would hang there teachers didn't like that lmfao
I was probably confused because that was 3rd grade a year before that I wanted to be an alter boy and my parents said absolutly not catholic priest touch little boys inappropriately.im grateful they wouldn't let me do that
Probably where alot of my mistrust came from
Or started
- You don't "follow" Jesus. He doesn't want that. All Jesus did (and wants you to do) is to Honor and Represent the Divine Virtues. Which is Leading yourself, and an inspiring example to others around you
Makes sense
@acesiva I was raised Catholic. Late in life, I now had all these "new" beliefs. The Ascension, and well Catholics (can) believe in ETs but you know I now had names for these species so that felt different, channeling water etc all the things. I'll make it kinda short- I threw out Catholicism in favor of this new thinking. Like you, I'm now kinda heading back over because ... gasp!... Catholicism (and this is my personal experience only) got a LOT of things right. AND... it still fits into the beliefs I hold now. Who knew??
I have come to believe that the things I believe now were present in the things I was taught but it was taught w/ a certain spin let's call it. LOL. Once you see the veil clouding things - you can take it off and revisit the core of the belief.
Duality thinking! LOL. Maybe you don't have to have one OR the other? The "powers-of-the-past" make you think things are in opposition to each other. This is NOT always the case.
There were things that resonated with you in the youtube videos. Perhaps remove the blurry to see where these 2 paths overlap/meet? You can take time - it took me 10 yrs - and discern what things in there you felt in your soul & heart. Maybe some, maybe a lot, maybe none. Maybe you'll find, like I did, they are very much the same in actuality.
Study it a bit. Go deep. I can't tell you how many ppl hv ideas of what Catholics believe that are 100% not what Catholics, in fact, believe. 🤣 LOL. (I find this to be true of Buddhism as well). But media can repeat and repeat and the average person will pick it up as truth. I am SURE this is true of New Age as well. And we all know it's true of Jesus. Be wary of ingesting info that mocks or demonizes a religion or belief system. Find out for yourself! Make sure you go to the core of the belief (you won't find this on youtube!) in order to discern upon which side you fall. That is super important IMHO.
Trust your own discernment. Don't feel pressured to "make a decision" or "pick a side". Many many paths to the Light. ❤️ Just my 2 cents! Thank you for sharing your story.
@square-peggy I have done this!
Oooh Lily 😮 I wanna hear this story! PM me if you feel like sharing (totally 👍 ok if u don't though 😊 )
@quinn ok! I was 17. (My mind was about 15, I'd say.) I lived in West Virginia. My parents lived in Myrtle Beach. I had just come from visiting there. I've always had dogs. At this time, I had a mini pin. They look like itty-bitty dobermans 🤣. As with all my pups, she was my baby.
Anyway, I was living in a trailer waiting for a friend to come visit. They were working graveyard shift & said they'd come over after work. Around sunrise. This was becoming routine, as I was experiencing a lot of unexplainable things in that home and always felt like someone was watching/following me. So much so, my little dog was becoming unhealthy, as she felt it as well. I had started sleeping in the living room with the TV on, in a recliner, inside a sleeping bag. For the purposes of this story, keep in mind that I am deaf in my right ear.
So I felt my little dog "Minnie" move around at my feet. Thinking she must be hot, I reached into the bag to help her out. As I felt her skinny little leg, I realized I had left her in SC with my parents to give her a break from the paranormal activity. As I realized this, the leg I was holding morphed into an arm (it was still under the bag, I couldn't see it) and instead of me holding it, I felt it transmute into a hairy and scaled, clawed, stinky thing holding me. I started trying to say "Jesus", but there was a block. I could not remember his name. Keep in mind at this time I was extremely religious & would have never forgotten his name. It was obvious something was blocking me. So I kept trying. On about the 5th try, I was able to say it. This thing screamed a blood-curdling scream, in my right ear. And I heard screams of billions of humans, bc of my beliefs at that time. And this thing burned and went back to this place I had created. Muddy rock & fire with only the faces of evil ppl showing bc their bodies were gone. But this place doesn't exist.... neither does that "demon". It was an experience to show me the power of the light, in a way that I would understand, 34 years ago.
@square-peggy WOW!!! That's an incredible story!!!! Thanks for sharing. Did the activity stop? I know even w/ a clearing or exorcisms it often takes more than one go. But if it was a representation for you then perhaps it was done since you'd gotten the lesson?