Feeling isolated as a Starseed?

@maree72 Thank you so much Maree ❤️.

Wow Maree. That’s a lot of loss. That’s an overwhelming amount of loss to experience in a very short period of time. I totally get the anger and resentment that would create emotionally. I’d be pissed too. Man, to lose your kitties to a Coyote is so sad. I’m sorry that you experienced that. I’d be pissed at coyotes. To come across remains too. Im sorry. It sucks seeing that. I just thought of Rufios life less body this morning, walking into the office. I have no idea why. I thought maybe Rufio was bit by a spider so I killed every spider that I could find and eliminated the entire spider population with a 2 house perimeter. I get where you’re coming from. What animal family do you have with you now? All feline? One of Rufios brothers is laying on me fast asleep as I type this. I don’t want to think about anything ever happening to him. I love that boy so much ❤️ 🐈. I’ve done that a couple times. Where I was like I should have gotten them in and they’ve gotten adventurous. They get into stuff just by curiosity and living their lives and doing things that make cats happy. My boy Tiger was missing for a night. He came back limping and I had to take him to the vet to treat his injuries and get antibiotics. He got into a cat fight and the claw injury was infected. I felt so guilty that I couldn’t find him and that I had let him out. I feel like it’s kind of oppressing them if we keep them inside away from their ability to be a free spirit in nature doing their thing. Grounding in their own ways to Gaia and experiencing the quality of life that we get to experience. Theres a balance to that of course but they are living their best life with that balance and enrichment time. I get the temptation to keep them in doors too but that’s a risk there too. I had a Savannah with my ex wife and he was always getting into trouble. Really large and had wild serval mixed. We started keeping him indoors strictly because we had to take him to the vet several times as he’d fight with everything. Dogs, cats, birds. Storm was a straight up menace to others. ❤️ Love that boy. He lives with my ex. The issue is he kept trying to escape. I’ve also had scenarios where I’ve kept a kitty in doors and they get out of accident and they aren’t equipped with the skills, abilities and confidence needed to be safe until there’re found or come back. I gain peace in knowing that no one really dies. I mean, not for good like we are programmed to think. We all knew each other before these physical incarnations on Gaias planet 🌎. I love that and how we are all connected in spirit and the field. We’re all connected as Source and there is no loss from that perspective, I guess. Still hurts from this perspective. Maybe that’s while Source fragments into us ? To experience ? Otherwise Source wouldn’t ? That would be so lonely. I just want to experience the positive stuff and manifest as much peace, love, happiness, abundance, gratitude and balance that I can. The rest I just try to flow with. This matrix is very difficult at times. Next time let’s chose a way easier mission please. 🙏 We all need a break after this one. 🙂

There was a period in 2017 of a dark night of the soul that lasted 7 months. I am hesitant to share it because of the triggering material for myself and maybe others but there is also good in it, too. It is definitely not a human-y dark night of the soul, very out there and otherwordly. To say one or two things, I was so afraid I felt like I was prey running from a predator, living off of adrenaline alone due to being constantly in the flight or fight state, that I remember seeing crop circles in my front yard, assumably from my star family, as real as if the grass had actually been chopped off about an inch or so, you could see the grass blades that were chopped off even. But as far as I could tell only I could see them, and they followed me everywhere I went. The energy they emitted was very high vibratory and the second I stood in one it was like trying to adjust and stabilize my energies so that I wouldn't be so afraid. They were of symbols I knew and didn't know, like the flower of life or the seed of life, not sure what that one is called. I remember one had the ankh of life. Other symbols.

On that same day, I ended up seeing with my bare eyes a dwarf-looking being materialize in the middle of the sidewalk whilst I was panicking, they looked male and he asked me, "You need some help, there?" Or something along those lines. I was just so flabbergasted and in shock at seeing a being show up from another dimension/realm whatever it was, stand in front of me and ask me that. I said nothing and he disappeared. He had a friend behind him who looked like his same race and maybe with some type of device or something, who watched me, but he seemed to be more aloof and disappeared before the one in front of him, the one who asked me if I needed help. They weren't solid looking either. Even though I couldn't see through them, they look transparent almost, like they came from a lighter realm or just a different realm. I would love to share this here, but I am hesitant because the darker aspects have to do with the ... I don't even know what you call it, but I was being targeted by some sort of ... secret? military? with crafts and technologies and being monitored in some sort of way. Maybe I will make it a separate post or post it here, I don't know yet. Because it is long and just... arduous. it would be nice to get it out, though, to people who understand. I can't tell my family because they would think I am insane again and would call the police to send me to a psych ward, and even though my therapist is a spiritual therapist, I can tell she doesn't fully understand what I tell her, or she is just baffled by it, or something like that. I would have to explain more in depth. She's said she's heard of starseeds but I dont know how far she believes in or knows about the topic. Anyway, sorry to ramble. Unsure as to whether this fits the topic very well, but I feel like I lost my self and who I was after 2017, which after those 7 months, the dark night led me to a first psychotic break and ended it, I think. I feel like I lost any sense of normalcy of every day life, I feel like I am constantly on the defense. My spirit guides descibed my root chakra as 'dismantled' and upon looking up the definition, they are basically meaning to say that it is in pieces or fragmented somehow, the energy is. My sense of safety hasn't returned since 2017, so I feel like that is what I lost.

Those 7 months of my life were the worst thing I have ever felt. My nervous system still hasn't healed from it. The isolated feeling, where you can't tell anyone what you're going through was definitely prevalent and is still prevalent today. I felt alone with my fears and I am still healing from them and those experiences today. I still feel alone, but this forum honestly helps quite a bit, so I am grateful to Elizabeth April for making this website. 

Thank you for reading 

@nickq1233 Thank you Nick. I have to say that I'm so new here, I'm still lost going around this website so naturally I didn't even know about the 'starseed introduction thread' so thank you again. You ask me how's my "awakening journey been so far" and I'm thinking "have I awakened?" but then Elizabeth says that if we have found her on social media etc, then we are awakened starseeds. I'm not telepathic nor psychic or a healer and quite simply my special skill is that I don't appear to fit in anywhere. A female colleague once told me, "Paul, when you were born, you broke the mould". I'll have to leave it there because written ramblings also appears to be a special skill of mine LOL and these are anecdotes for that intro thread. Until the next time, bye.

@rainyangel Good to hear from you Angie. Life can be a process and often tough for many people but we have to try and overcome the obstacles as best we can. This community should help many of us though and I'm glad to be here. It's that G word that I keep telling myself... Grateful. Until the next time, Regards.

@abby14 I hear you. That tough to talk about. Dark knight of the soul is like ego death. Traumatic but empowering at the same time. Your experience sounds very similar. A couple things you said. First off the Ankh, flower of life, eye of Horus are all symbols that I was receiving in the beginning of my awakening. They led me to Alchemy. Especially the Ankh. I have a couple Ankhs as a result of that experience. I was guided towards,the Hermetic philosophy and the teachings from Thoth/Hermes. Maybe that’s what they are trying to tell you? My guides made me dive into Alchemy right away. Maybe you should check out the Kybalion, Flower of Life, the Art of Alchemy. All have the symbols that you are referencing. You received them probably for the same reason that I received them. I’ll attached a pic of my Ankh. Here a study guide for the Kybalion if you want to dig into that a little. It’s Universal Law. The rules to this matrix and manifesting. It provides us the skill set and understanding to apply Transmutation and mental Alchemy to our manifestations. https://youtu.be/Etz2Kgtev5w

Do you know anything about elementals? What you describe is almost like a gnome or elfin. Do you resonate with fairies and other Elemental beings? It’s funny how we asked casually if you need some help over there. Lol. They’re funny. They’ll mess around with us. They’ll make fun or even get mad at us if we don’t something that they don’t like. Oh no. Do you feel like you have abducted by the cabal or a nefarious government entity? It’s a thing unfortunately. The cabal has their own craft that look like ET craft but they aren’t ET. They’ve been abducting people since the 70’s. How long ago was this? There was something going on before our Galactic families came to us. I was abducted as well and have traumatic memories that I’ve been processing. But before my Telosion family came to me. It’s like they were tracking us starseeds and abducting us before the GFL came back. I haven’t experienced anything negative like that since my family made contact. Do you feel like you’re still experiencing the cabal or military related tracking or abductions or is it more that you’re processing the trauma related to those events? 

Please post any details you want related to anything that you’ve experienced. This is a safe space and probably the best community to get that stuff off your chest. My sister and I have joint memories of being abducted. I hear you on not wanting to talk about this kind of thing to the unawakened. I took myself to a psychiatrist before I figured out what was really going on. Although I feel like people are becoming more open to hearing the truth as it relates to ETs and the nefarious actions that the cabal related secret government programs are responsible for. When it all surfaces, there won’t be government in the same way that we have today. Sex trafficking, abductions, murder. The atrocities that our world governments are responsible for are horrible. The cable related segments of these world authorities. There was a nefarious ET infiltration that’s responsible for most of this. Draconian. 

Sounds like you experienced an ego death. So good. It’s usually attached to the dark night of the soul experience. Do you feel like you need your chakras repaired or activated? Or do you feel like you hold attachments or blockages as a result of your experiences. I know I do. Ive had several attachments removed and I had to re activate and repair every chakra to regain my abilities. We have blockages and attachments that we have to clear to be able to re activate everything. Do you feel like you’re processing your trauma pretty well?

@don-paul-ap-arfon I hear you. There is a lot of different sections on the forum. I’m glad you jumped in. Gotta start posting somewhere. 🙂 Elizabeth is totally correct. If you’re here your awakened and a starseed. Lol. The effort it takes to search for the site and create a log in is enough to validate that. It’s totally normal for anyone starting their awakening process to not really have their abilities re activated yet. That’s why we are all here really. Your colleague describes the typical starseed. We don’t fit into any mold. If anything we are mold disrupters or dismantles. You’re not human, so why try to act like one. 🙂 

Are you meditating daily? Or where are you at from that perspective? I didn’t know what meditation was when I started my awakening process. 🙂 We can help guide you through the process. We try to get the third eye up and running first then activate the other chakras. Most of this is done as you start meditating daily. It’s a progressive thing. Learn to meditate daily, listen to chakra frequencies or do guided activations for each chakra, dna, merkabah etc. I’m sure youll have some healing to do as you start to reactivate your chakras. It’s called shadow work. We start converting back to our innate energy structures by activating, clearing attachments and blockages. That’s how we re gain back our psychic abilities, healing abilities, activating abilities and so on. They have a really good healing group that several EA forum members participate in. It’s called Cosmic Awakening. It’s a group of starseeds from this forum with abilities. I really like the reiki group. They have group sessions and you can arrange one on one sessions if you need it. They have sessions where they’ll perform readings on the group, we’ve practiced our physic abilities on each other in the group. They’ll do attachment and blockage clearing . A combination of healing and developing psychic abilities. Could be good for you to get in a group setting to meditate in a group setting and get exposed to those types of things. Here’s their site if you’re interested in anything like that. Cosmicawakening.org

There’s a tons of great things that you can explore to reactivate your abilities. You have them. They are innate all of us. We just have to reactivate some stuff and re learn how to use them all. Lily has a great YouTube channel where she does group activations. She does a Sunday live activation meditation weekly. You can watch back previous lives and still get the benefit. Lily did my activations personally. Hers her YouTube channel https://www.youtube.com/live/9RSipbYwmp4?feature=share You have a lot of members on the forum that you can tap as well. I look forward to seeing you develop. We all start at the beginning. Then we have our abilities. There just a process in between:)

@don-paul-ap-arfon @rainyangel I love that guys:) We have the greatest starseed forum. Elizabeth, thanks again. ❤️ EA has enabled a wonderful community of starseeds that can support each other through their own perspective awakening journeys. Angie, awesome new avatar graphic. How’d Federica’s session go this morning? Did you guys do some cool psychic stuff? Your psychic abilities are really taking off huh? You have your new oracle deck too:) Do you have a pendulum? I forgot if I’ve asked you that before?

@nickq1233 Hi Nick, I forgot to answer one of your questions. I've been meditating twice daily, most days, most years (there have been substantial gaps though here and there LOL), since age 24. I am 66 now, although I refuse to own that age, I prefer to say anything from 36 to 40. If you met me you'd probably think I was 50 or at worst early 50s. Last year when I had my first ever flu jab (reluctantly), my doctor wanted to check that I was old enough to get the free one I guess, so he asked my age and I foolishly and humorously asked him to guess. He played my game and said early 50s. "I'll take that" I told him and then my age. The meditation I've been doing is TM, and there are some major celebs that advocate TM but after all these years I still have, not issues with it, but apprehensions, does it actually work apart from losing 40 minutes of your day split in two dessions. Why do I ask this, well, because I don't feel like I transcend. I've experimented with another very simple alternative meditation (free in a book), added an extra technique into it, and it worked, and I can safely say that I feel like I've transcended at least ONCE in my life. LOL. But I shouldn't laugh at it, and I'm going to ask my girlfriend about this, because she is highly spiritual and, more importantly, also does TM but had more fun doing an audio tape that I bought her during her early meditation period.
I can discuss TM things with her without breaking any rules, as long as we don't share our 'secret mantras' with each other (you pay your initial life-member free, get a mantra specific to you, hmmm, and then over a period of days, do a one-to-one meditation with your teacher). But if you want to progress to a more advanced meditator status then you pay for any specific advanced courses, which is fair I suppose, but, most people will remain with that initial mantra. What if it keeps you at a lower level of conscioussness..? Therefore what if it's in essence holding us back..? I'll leave that there because this is a big subject...

@rainyangel Totally. I think you’re absolutely right and your guides too. You’re really blooming and taking a ton of action. Maybe Patrice can chip away at what he can pick up on if anything in the group sessions. If I’m there maybe I can help too:) it’s definitely a progressive thing. Like you’re picking up on. Every day kind of starting to feel better. Along with that comes a strengthening of the psychic abilities, and the other stuff. It’s like everything gets stronger and more intense. In the way of your energy and abilities. But that’s the goal so I’m sure you will be happier. I feel like if I’m not taking the action that my higher self wants, I’ll be bummed out until I do it. Like he’s bummed out until I do it. 🙂 Definitely meditate daily. Like forever. It’s just a routine change to build it in daily. But the benefits and results are life changing. That’s how we get a lot of our psychic impressions and that’s how we do a lot of healing and activating. Especially if our ET family is above your place. They’ll work on us if we are in a meditative state as well. You can meditate with the intention of asking them to send healing or activations to you:) You can meditate in the intention of them shouting their craft to you so that you can record them. Make sure you get a period of zero thought in there of course. Just the present moment. No thoughts. It’s the only true reality, the present. If we aren’t giving that opportunity to ourselves to experience the present moment we are losing out. I hear yah on keep consistent with the maintenance. It’s with anything, you’ll get more consistent with it in time. You’re going through what a lot of us go through at different time. I’m so happy that you joined the group. If I’m in there ill try to dig some of that out if you:) Get you to talk. Lol. I’ll be in group tomorrow for Federica’s session. It’s a practice your psychic abilities session:) fun. 

Have no worries about how you feel like you look or don’t look or how put together you are. I attend those  sessions in a ball cap and shorts most the time. It’s not about the vessel, it’s about us, the real us. The focus is 100% inside. You’ll drop that programming.  No one cares what each other appear like. No judgement and no values on how dressed up any of us are:) My back drop of my camera view is my bedroom . Sitting on my bed with a bunch or gear and crap hung up. No worries on any of it. It’s prevalent to have implants, tags, imprints, attachments, blockages and all that. We all have them. That’s what group is for too. Work on those energies whether it’s through reiki, which is awesome by the way to Patrice lifting an energies or implant , imprints etc. if it’s effecting you really badly Patrice does one on one sessions separately. That’s what he had to do with me. Then my abilities really took off. I had a lot of the same going on. I’m dealing with stuff all the time. Like a roller coaster. Higher vibing , lower vibing. Releasing trauma and lifting those denser energies can change everything as it relates to our perspectives on our daily lives. Which in turn helps us manifest more positive outcomes. It all starts with us and how we are feeling emotionally.

@rainyangel Awesome on the degree:) that’s an awesome class to have, astronomy. I’m super excited to hear the details of your reading. Maybe you could create a post to share it? If comfortable of course:) I can see the passion you have for the esoteric. You’re into the astrology side too right? I haven't really learned anything about the different zodiac signs and that aspect of this ascension. I don’t pull cards or anything either. I only know how to use a pendulum, read people and my general psychic abilities are fairly strong. I want to learn how to use the other psychic tools.

@don-paul-ap-arfon Nice, twice daily. 🙂 Nice. Your vessel has treated you well. You have a lot of experience meditating. Do you feel like you’re receiving any visions or messages when you hold that zero thought state? Do you think some of your chakras could be blocked? If you’re feeling stuck? Maybe a blockage or attachment. Have you intentionally tried to re activate your chakras? Root, Sacral, Solar Plexus, Heart, Third Eye, Crown? Or your 12 stand DNA? Lily does those guided activation meditations. Maybe 🤔 when you’re meditating, listen to chakra frequencies. Like Root for Root, Sacral for Sacral and so on. Here post some examples below. Headphones, in meditation with the intention. To truly transcend and ascend we have to re activate some things. 🙂 then we get our abilities back . ❤️ Invoke Arch Angel support to help for sure. Just ask and they’ll help. Same with the ascended masters. They can’t help though if we don’t invoke them. Just part of the rules here. 

ROOT CHAKRA FREQUENCIES - https://youtu.be/7Xhof7mETqI

SACRAL CHAKRA FREQUENCIES- https://youtu.be/OONFKPHEgYY

SOLAR PLEXUS CHAKRA FREQUENCIES- https://youtu.be/T9mHRpKL7r4

HEART CHAKRA FREQUENCIES- https://youtu.be/yPSw_rCSDXI

THROAT CHAKRA FREQUENCIES- https://youtu.be/DY3ROsPyw68

THIRD EYE CHAKRA FREQUENCIES- https://youtu.be/KtIYER-TUr8

CROWN CHAKRA FREQUENCIES- https://youtu.be/c8D0a_IQGyc

@nickq1233 Hi Nick, as soon as you told me about Lily the other day, I was straight on her YouTube channel and I did see the chakra alignment balancing unblocking videos and I've already been listening to a couple of them before I throw myself head first into them. They are pretty full-on and time consuming so I'll need to re-adjust my life around them but Wow it's all cool. Yes, twice daily for most of my adult life and even though I don't feel like they are doing me any good they probably are in a very basic non-paranormal way. Well, that local psychic that I know told me in 2017 that I had two spirit guides with me watching my positive and negative emotions, that has to cound for something I guess so it's all good. Thanks Nick.

@don-paul-ap-arfon Nice. That’s awesome. You went straight to work. Lol. That’s how you do it. 🙂 Perfect, everything you’re doing is perfect. Keep doing that stuff and you’ll start to really surface the energies you want to surface and release. As you get all the chakras woken back up , you’ll see your clairvoyance and psychic abilities come back. I’d pay extra attention to Third eye activation. Some people like to work from the root up. I like to start with the third eye , then start at the root back up to the crown. Hitting the third eye again but at a later stage so there’s a more advanced perspective when activating third eye the second time around. It takes time to activate off course. It may take 10 days, 30 days, shorter our longer just varies. Dependent on blockages , attachments and all those lower vibrational energies that we are purging right now. Are you asking the Arch Angels and Ascended masters or your guides for help? We have to ask them or they can’t intervene. You can say something like “Arch Angel Michael. I would like you to place a sphere of protection around me please. Filled with divine white light. Preventing and repelling any low vibrational, negative or parasitic energies from interacting with my energy field. Please only allow energies of the highest love and light be able to interact with my energy field”. That’ll provide protection daily. Saint Germain is an example for transforming , transmuting or like reversing polarity of a lower vibrational energy. Like this, “ I would like to ask Saint Germain to please send me your gold violet flame to transmute any low vibrational energies to their highest polarity of love and light”. 

Great job 🙂

@nickq1233 Thank you for the useful and protective information Nick. In them you mention "low vibrational, negative and parasitic energies" but it was that very situation in my life last year (exactly a year ago to July) that brought me to Elizabeth April. t was my personal 'Dark Night of the Soul' scenario and it lasted months until I was able to 'de-code' the psychic message I'd been given. Through what happened to me, not only am I a stronger person spiritually, but I am now a messenger of that information so that others can avoid those negative attachments. The issue is how to get people to believe and act on what I want to share with them. Anything beyond what can be seen to most people doesn't exist. My cousin's 21 year old daughter had a triple 'Dark Night of the Soul' 3 years ago and the last one was 'the straw that broke the camel's back' and she leaped off a bridge and killed herself. When I was meditating yesterday, it suddenly popped into my head that maybe she was a starseed but didn't have anyone close enough or 'weird' enough to talk to. Now, 3 years on and I'm armed with new knowledge. Nick, I'll leave that there (I'm beginning to like that phrase LOL). Regards

@don-paul-ap-arfon Amazing information Paul. I am so sorry for your loss. I hope your family is going ok. ❤️ Dark nights are dark. I went through something similar. I may not be here if it wasn’t for my ET guides. I was in a super dark place right before and during my ego death. That must be very emotional to reconnect with your cousins daughter like that. You definitely belong here on in the community. You’ll find that a lot of EA forum members have a super similar story. What have you decoded so far ? Regarding the information they gave you? I know how that process is. Getting the message but not knowing anything about the topic. I’ve had to reverse investigate so much information like that. Thanks for sharing everything that you have. Good having you here:)