Feeling isolated as a Starseed?

@marieguerdin11 Awesome. I just saw that. Thank you so much:)

@nickq1233 Hey Nick, thanks for all that great stuff.  Yea I have been doing guided meditations for implants/devices, entities, 12 chakra energy bodies clearings, multidimensional and soul extensions healing and unification.  Balancing feminine and masculine energies, connection with soul family, Protection. Inner child healing, chord cuttings.  One I'm starting to work on is sovereignty as a divine light being.  I feel that has been an energy leak of mine and a huge block. Need to come into my full empowerment.   I'm working more on my third, crown, and soul star chakras and spiritual healing and connection to Source and my soul family and guides  I actually did a lot of cleaning yesterday. I'm proud of myself. It has been awful here. Still have so much to do that have been neglected.  I haven't been hungry at all lately.  I did join the site. I'll probably be on Thursday with federica. 

@nickq1233 First I want to share my love and understanding for the pain of losing her you are feeling. I lost so many pets in2009- 2011 and people as well and was so tore up from the death of the 1st one I couldn't deal with the 32 lost lives behind hers of both pets and people in that short of time. All I could do was imagine me shoving Death off the boat and into the river of souls where they devoured him cuz this was of course way before my awakening and I didn't know what to think about life n death af how it all worked once we left here. I was just so pissed off at death for taking so many from me but more importantly it took my kitties. Many of them and in 2016 it took one that I shared the closest connection with. Infact both cats I felt my closest connection with were eaten by coyotes and I don't have children so my last one named Dash was like my son. I went looking for him and angrily said to the dead that would give me mssgs to give to loved ones for them that I would never do it again if someone didnt tell me where my son was. They got lucky as I saw a vulture fly away from the place I knew I'd find him. I found his fur and his paw I would kiss every night in bed. He was the perfect kitty I ever had and he died so violently.  I feel guilty for not putting him inside before I left. He was so sweet. How does one forgive themself knowing this could have been prevented? The only comfort I feel after that moment in time has been on here and finding out what happens to our souls after death. I think it's important to know it's ok to feel sad over the losses we have been thru. And grateful we should feel knowing we can reunite with them. And even better than that sometimes they reincarnate back around to us cuz they can feel we still need them. In which you will know cuz they will take on the same traits and facial expressions. They will look at you with a knowing look.  So maybe your chapter with her isn't over. Maybe it is a to be continued....

@maree72 I'm sorry for the loss of your pets.  I too know the pain of losing pets.  It has been my biggest wounds and I have also done things that have lead to their death or could've prevented other things from happening to them.  I still feel a ton of pain and guilt and regret and it is something I'm really trying to get through and work on . I can't really do it myself anymore, I've tried and I just want to run away from it in destructive ways, punishing myself or not wanting to live in this world anymore, because I just can't get over certain stuff. No matter what anyone says or what I've learned in this 3D world, therapy and what not, it doesn't help a thing.   So I've put it on a shelf until I can fully connect with the higher realms and my guides and find out the higher perspectives about what happened and why, how to heal from them and forgive myself and stop hurting over stuff. This ascension stuff has brought stuff up so much more intensely, but I cannot deal with it.  I need help with that, a higher understanding, and since i don't have that yet I can only put it up for now, trust it'll be worked out in time. I personally wont be able to raise my vibration otherwise, I've learned.

Hi Nick, reading that made me feel like I'd just lost my own animal friend. Sorry. That was painful to read through the tears. Thank you for sharing especially your beautiful vision of Rufio being escorted back to the star anchor in Lyra by the Arch Angels. By the way Nick (and everyone else) I'm new here, but I felt the need to say something, anything, because I remember what this post was about, ie "the isolation and loneliness that we may feel as starseeds" and right now, the more I read on social media and indeed when I read information by Elizabeth, the more I realise how few people I can really talk to about all the spiritual topics. Regards, Paul

@don-paul-ap-arfon Thank you so much Paul. Good to have you on the EA forum. Yeah, it’s been a tough loss to process. If I wasn’t psychic it wouldn’t be as bad. It’s just really hard with some of that stuff that came in that way. At the same time it provided me peace knowing that she was safe, happy and home. You should maybe put a post in the starseed introduction thread if you resonate with the community. You can totally tell the other starseeds a little about yourself. We have a great group here. I haven’t found anything like Elizabeth’s forum.

How’s your awakening journey been so far? When did you awaken? Do you know your starseed origin ? 

@rainyangel Sucks right? ❤️ love can hurt temporarily I guess. Until we re unite:) You’re totally right. There’s an element of guilt because you view it as your responsibility to keep them safe. I hear myself up for not being able to prevent it from happening. Then I beat myself up for not finding her sooner and maybe saving her. Loss is so much more difficult when you feel responsibility to protect the one who you lose. 

Angie, for your guilt and pain you’re feeling. What do you think is affecting you in your process of surfacing the trauma and releasing it? “Shadow work” Are any deep seeded Subconscious memories coming up?  Do you feel like it’s past life related as well? Like karmic or ancestral line ? Or is it related to this incarnation?

@rainyangel Awesome. I’m so happy that you joined. You’ll love Federica if you haven’t already met her. I’m sure you have. Psychic stuff, fun! I’ll be at work or I’d totally be there. I like to attend her sessions on the weekend. I’ve tried from the road or at work and I’ll just freeze or get disconnected.  I really like practicing and developing psychic skills. We’ve done practice readings on each other, remote viewing all sorts of cool things. Federica will read the group, she’ll pull cards too. All the cool psychic stuff. All sorts of fun things to practice on the psychic side of our abilities. You're doing so many good things Angie. That’s so good. You’re hitting all of the important areas. You’ve done the work to identify the areas that need to be activated and you're taking the actions needed to activate. That’s huge. Raise your vibration a ton by activating more. Then you start practicing Alchemy and dive into the esoteric. You're doing your shadow work, knee deep and that’s great. We gotta surface and process our trauma and karma. We got the rule set to this game a little late. Universal law would have been great to know about say, age 6. Lol. We acquired some “cause and effect” karma, trauma out of these incarnations here. You’ll be a well rounded, fully activated starseed. A chosen one with full abilities. Ready to contribute back at your fullest potential as the highest version of your self. I see it happening before our eyes. I love it ❤️. 🙂

@maree72 Thank you so much Maree ❤️.

Wow Maree. That’s a lot of loss. That’s an overwhelming amount of loss to experience in a very short period of time. I totally get the anger and resentment that would create emotionally. I’d be pissed too. Man, to lose your kitties to a Coyote is so sad. I’m sorry that you experienced that. I’d be pissed at coyotes. To come across remains too. Im sorry. It sucks seeing that. I just thought of Rufios life less body this morning, walking into the office. I have no idea why. I thought maybe Rufio was bit by a spider so I killed every spider that I could find and eliminated the entire spider population with a 2 house perimeter. I get where you’re coming from. What animal family do you have with you now? All feline? One of Rufios brothers is laying on me fast asleep as I type this. I don’t want to think about anything ever happening to him. I love that boy so much ❤️ 🐈. I’ve done that a couple times. Where I was like I should have gotten them in and they’ve gotten adventurous. They get into stuff just by curiosity and living their lives and doing things that make cats happy. My boy Tiger was missing for a night. He came back limping and I had to take him to the vet to treat his injuries and get antibiotics. He got into a cat fight and the claw injury was infected. I felt so guilty that I couldn’t find him and that I had let him out. I feel like it’s kind of oppressing them if we keep them inside away from their ability to be a free spirit in nature doing their thing. Grounding in their own ways to Gaia and experiencing the quality of life that we get to experience. Theres a balance to that of course but they are living their best life with that balance and enrichment time. I get the temptation to keep them in doors too but that’s a risk there too. I had a Savannah with my ex wife and he was always getting into trouble. Really large and had wild serval mixed. We started keeping him indoors strictly because we had to take him to the vet several times as he’d fight with everything. Dogs, cats, birds. Storm was a straight up menace to others. ❤️ Love that boy. He lives with my ex. The issue is he kept trying to escape. I’ve also had scenarios where I’ve kept a kitty in doors and they get out of accident and they aren’t equipped with the skills, abilities and confidence needed to be safe until there’re found or come back. I gain peace in knowing that no one really dies. I mean, not for good like we are programmed to think. We all knew each other before these physical incarnations on Gaias planet 🌎. I love that and how we are all connected in spirit and the field. We’re all connected as Source and there is no loss from that perspective, I guess. Still hurts from this perspective. Maybe that’s while Source fragments into us ? To experience ? Otherwise Source wouldn’t ? That would be so lonely. I just want to experience the positive stuff and manifest as much peace, love, happiness, abundance, gratitude and balance that I can. The rest I just try to flow with. This matrix is very difficult at times. Next time let’s chose a way easier mission please. 🙏 We all need a break after this one. 🙂

There was a period in 2017 of a dark night of the soul that lasted 7 months. I am hesitant to share it because of the triggering material for myself and maybe others but there is also good in it, too. It is definitely not a human-y dark night of the soul, very out there and otherwordly. To say one or two things, I was so afraid I felt like I was prey running from a predator, living off of adrenaline alone due to being constantly in the flight or fight state, that I remember seeing crop circles in my front yard, assumably from my star family, as real as if the grass had actually been chopped off about an inch or so, you could see the grass blades that were chopped off even. But as far as I could tell only I could see them, and they followed me everywhere I went. The energy they emitted was very high vibratory and the second I stood in one it was like trying to adjust and stabilize my energies so that I wouldn't be so afraid. They were of symbols I knew and didn't know, like the flower of life or the seed of life, not sure what that one is called. I remember one had the ankh of life. Other symbols.

On that same day, I ended up seeing with my bare eyes a dwarf-looking being materialize in the middle of the sidewalk whilst I was panicking, they looked male and he asked me, "You need some help, there?" Or something along those lines. I was just so flabbergasted and in shock at seeing a being show up from another dimension/realm whatever it was, stand in front of me and ask me that. I said nothing and he disappeared. He had a friend behind him who looked like his same race and maybe with some type of device or something, who watched me, but he seemed to be more aloof and disappeared before the one in front of him, the one who asked me if I needed help. They weren't solid looking either. Even though I couldn't see through them, they look transparent almost, like they came from a lighter realm or just a different realm. I would love to share this here, but I am hesitant because the darker aspects have to do with the ... I don't even know what you call it, but I was being targeted by some sort of ... secret? military? with crafts and technologies and being monitored in some sort of way. Maybe I will make it a separate post or post it here, I don't know yet. Because it is long and just... arduous. it would be nice to get it out, though, to people who understand. I can't tell my family because they would think I am insane again and would call the police to send me to a psych ward, and even though my therapist is a spiritual therapist, I can tell she doesn't fully understand what I tell her, or she is just baffled by it, or something like that. I would have to explain more in depth. She's said she's heard of starseeds but I dont know how far she believes in or knows about the topic. Anyway, sorry to ramble. Unsure as to whether this fits the topic very well, but I feel like I lost my self and who I was after 2017, which after those 7 months, the dark night led me to a first psychotic break and ended it, I think. I feel like I lost any sense of normalcy of every day life, I feel like I am constantly on the defense. My spirit guides descibed my root chakra as 'dismantled' and upon looking up the definition, they are basically meaning to say that it is in pieces or fragmented somehow, the energy is. My sense of safety hasn't returned since 2017, so I feel like that is what I lost.

Those 7 months of my life were the worst thing I have ever felt. My nervous system still hasn't healed from it. The isolated feeling, where you can't tell anyone what you're going through was definitely prevalent and is still prevalent today. I felt alone with my fears and I am still healing from them and those experiences today. I still feel alone, but this forum honestly helps quite a bit, so I am grateful to Elizabeth April for making this website. 

Thank you for reading 

@nickq1233 Thank you Nick. I have to say that I'm so new here, I'm still lost going around this website so naturally I didn't even know about the 'starseed introduction thread' so thank you again. You ask me how's my "awakening journey been so far" and I'm thinking "have I awakened?" but then Elizabeth says that if we have found her on social media etc, then we are awakened starseeds. I'm not telepathic nor psychic or a healer and quite simply my special skill is that I don't appear to fit in anywhere. A female colleague once told me, "Paul, when you were born, you broke the mould". I'll have to leave it there because written ramblings also appears to be a special skill of mine LOL and these are anecdotes for that intro thread. Until the next time, bye.

@don-paul-ap-arfon Hi Paul, nice to meet you.  Look around, many of us are written ramblers. lol  Yeah I'm figuring out my psychic abilities.  I think I've had them and didn't know it because they are such a part of you and the way you think and feel you just always thought it was normal.  It's takes a long time to figure out that other people don't actually think and feel and perceive the same way. I have never fit into a group myself, always being the loner usually, never ran in clique or been on teams.  Very isolated life.  I can't deal with it anymore and need some real connection, with other like minded people, with my soul family and guide teams.  I'm looking forward to finally connecting with them for real, but it's a process and I have to take consistent action and consistency isn't my best quality. I'm never going to get anywhere if I don't find some sort of self discipline and organization, routine, structure for my life. It's been insanity. Can't seem to keep my dishes all clean for the life of me. My intention to connect is there and that's what matters.

@rainyangel Good to hear from you Angie. Life can be a process and often tough for many people but we have to try and overcome the obstacles as best we can. This community should help many of us though and I'm glad to be here. It's that G word that I keep telling myself... Grateful. Until the next time, Regards.

@abby14 I hear you. That tough to talk about. Dark knight of the soul is like ego death. Traumatic but empowering at the same time. Your experience sounds very similar. A couple things you said. First off the Ankh, flower of life, eye of Horus are all symbols that I was receiving in the beginning of my awakening. They led me to Alchemy. Especially the Ankh. I have a couple Ankhs as a result of that experience. I was guided towards,the Hermetic philosophy and the teachings from Thoth/Hermes. Maybe that’s what they are trying to tell you? My guides made me dive into Alchemy right away. Maybe you should check out the Kybalion, Flower of Life, the Art of Alchemy. All have the symbols that you are referencing. You received them probably for the same reason that I received them. I’ll attached a pic of my Ankh. Here a study guide for the Kybalion if you want to dig into that a little. It’s Universal Law. The rules to this matrix and manifesting. It provides us the skill set and understanding to apply Transmutation and mental Alchemy to our manifestations. https://youtu.be/Etz2Kgtev5w

Do you know anything about elementals? What you describe is almost like a gnome or elfin. Do you resonate with fairies and other Elemental beings? It’s funny how we asked casually if you need some help over there. Lol. They’re funny. They’ll mess around with us. They’ll make fun or even get mad at us if we don’t something that they don’t like. Oh no. Do you feel like you have abducted by the cabal or a nefarious government entity? It’s a thing unfortunately. The cabal has their own craft that look like ET craft but they aren’t ET. They’ve been abducting people since the 70’s. How long ago was this? There was something going on before our Galactic families came to us. I was abducted as well and have traumatic memories that I’ve been processing. But before my Telosion family came to me. It’s like they were tracking us starseeds and abducting us before the GFL came back. I haven’t experienced anything negative like that since my family made contact. Do you feel like you’re still experiencing the cabal or military related tracking or abductions or is it more that you’re processing the trauma related to those events? 

Please post any details you want related to anything that you’ve experienced. This is a safe space and probably the best community to get that stuff off your chest. My sister and I have joint memories of being abducted. I hear you on not wanting to talk about this kind of thing to the unawakened. I took myself to a psychiatrist before I figured out what was really going on. Although I feel like people are becoming more open to hearing the truth as it relates to ETs and the nefarious actions that the cabal related secret government programs are responsible for. When it all surfaces, there won’t be government in the same way that we have today. Sex trafficking, abductions, murder. The atrocities that our world governments are responsible for are horrible. The cable related segments of these world authorities. There was a nefarious ET infiltration that’s responsible for most of this. Draconian. 

Sounds like you experienced an ego death. So good. It’s usually attached to the dark night of the soul experience. Do you feel like you need your chakras repaired or activated? Or do you feel like you hold attachments or blockages as a result of your experiences. I know I do. Ive had several attachments removed and I had to re activate and repair every chakra to regain my abilities. We have blockages and attachments that we have to clear to be able to re activate everything. Do you feel like you’re processing your trauma pretty well?

@don-paul-ap-arfon I hear you. There is a lot of different sections on the forum. I’m glad you jumped in. Gotta start posting somewhere. 🙂 Elizabeth is totally correct. If you’re here your awakened and a starseed. Lol. The effort it takes to search for the site and create a log in is enough to validate that. It’s totally normal for anyone starting their awakening process to not really have their abilities re activated yet. That’s why we are all here really. Your colleague describes the typical starseed. We don’t fit into any mold. If anything we are mold disrupters or dismantles. You’re not human, so why try to act like one. 🙂 

Are you meditating daily? Or where are you at from that perspective? I didn’t know what meditation was when I started my awakening process. 🙂 We can help guide you through the process. We try to get the third eye up and running first then activate the other chakras. Most of this is done as you start meditating daily. It’s a progressive thing. Learn to meditate daily, listen to chakra frequencies or do guided activations for each chakra, dna, merkabah etc. I’m sure youll have some healing to do as you start to reactivate your chakras. It’s called shadow work. We start converting back to our innate energy structures by activating, clearing attachments and blockages. That’s how we re gain back our psychic abilities, healing abilities, activating abilities and so on. They have a really good healing group that several EA forum members participate in. It’s called Cosmic Awakening. It’s a group of starseeds from this forum with abilities. I really like the reiki group. They have group sessions and you can arrange one on one sessions if you need it. They have sessions where they’ll perform readings on the group, we’ve practiced our physic abilities on each other in the group. They’ll do attachment and blockage clearing . A combination of healing and developing psychic abilities. Could be good for you to get in a group setting to meditate in a group setting and get exposed to those types of things. Here’s their site if you’re interested in anything like that. Cosmicawakening.org

There’s a tons of great things that you can explore to reactivate your abilities. You have them. They are innate all of us. We just have to reactivate some stuff and re learn how to use them all. Lily has a great YouTube channel where she does group activations. She does a Sunday live activation meditation weekly. You can watch back previous lives and still get the benefit. Lily did my activations personally. Hers her YouTube channel https://www.youtube.com/live/9RSipbYwmp4?feature=share You have a lot of members on the forum that you can tap as well. I look forward to seeing you develop. We all start at the beginning. Then we have our abilities. There just a process in between:)