Feeling isolated as a Starseed?

@nickq1233 Thank you for bringing up this kind of topic because there are a lot of Starseeds that can relate to this. ❤️🙏

@nickq1233  Hi Nick, thanks for sharing that.  I am sorry about what happened to Rufio. I know how painful that can be.  That's a strange way to go to. Do you understand why or how?  If it were me, I think I'd probably even be angry.  I've been trying to put protection around my cat now these days.   I have a large amount of painful animal stories.  Really painful ones, that I struggle to let go of today. So you have two kitties there still.  What are their names? 

Yes I feel utterly alone and isolated and I can't take how I'm feeling anymore.  

@rainyangel Thank Angie. Yeah, I’m still bumming about it. It’s because she kind of pulled me through emotionally some pretty crazy times. The whole litter really. Yep, got the 2 bothers still. One is Rufios twin. Same everything just male. You couldn’t tell them apart when they were kittens. I’ll attach a pic of when they were all kittens. 🙂 Pulled me through a divorce, getting visited by Aliens, haunted house, my awakening and everything that’s happened from then to now. I got them right before my awakening. When Covid was at its worst. Everyone locked down in quarantine. I don’t know if it was maybe a black widow bite or just a stomach or internal rupture. She was barely 3. I clean up a large Pyle of her throw up earlier that day. When I found her she was laying on her side on the floor of the bedroom with her mouth open like she threw up blood. Looks like she passed really quick fortunately. No other signs of any Health issues. No swelling, no wounds. she was safe in her favorite room. I was wondering maybe her mission is complete? She’s home now though. Where home really is. I know I’ll see her again when I go home. It was cool connecting to her in spirit but it makes me cry every time so I’m trying to just let the loss pass through it’s process.

@nickq1233 Aw.  She the closest grey one to the camera? Yeah the death sounds strange. It sucks you don't know exactly what happened. Do you ever put protection around your kitties too.  I have been doing that with my cat these days. He's 12 or so.  Sully. Got him from the shelter when he was 7.  Just got all his teeth pulled out and a shave cuz he was all matted.  I'm feeling better today than I had been.  So I'm happy about that. Just feels like a cold now.  I got a new tarot deck I've reading up on.

@rainyangel Yep. Rufio is the closest to the camera giving her cute eyes. lol. I love your kitty picture. Sully is a beautiful cat. So cool that you are able to give him a loving home. ❤️ Love his hair. About her death, I know. Totally strange. I'm keeping her brothers inside while I spray the outside and make sure the backyard is safe for them. It's so hot right now they don't really mind. I have invoked protection for them before but I don't do it regularly. I've healed the boys twice when they were sick. Like energy healing. It's the only time that I've done healing work in person on anyone. Both went from runny nose and sniffles to perfectly healthy the next day. I took them to the vet and the vet was super concerned, prescribed antibiotics but I didn't end up giving it to them because they are healthy the next day. I should get into the habit of invoking protections for them daily like I do for myself. Maybe I can just add that into my routine. I usually do my invoking for the day in my shower in the morning. Thats so cool that your putting protection around your Sully:) Very good idea. I don't want to lose another if I could have done something to keep them safe. Thats awesome that you're feeling better. So many people have been getting sick all year. Hopefully you'll kick it completely, so you'll feel 100%. How are you liking the Tarot deck? You pulling cards already and all that? Federica pulled some cards on Thursday during the Cosmic Awakening group session. So cool. Do you have a pendulum?

@nickq1233 Hey Nick  it actually says it's not a tarot but an oracle deck.  I pulled two and it was perfect for me. I mean really perfect and it made me cry actually. I had to sage the deck first and all.  These are pretty unique for sure.  I got them from Lightstar creations.  She does all the artwork herself channeled through higher dimensions.  They're supposed to be infused with light language and codes and things.  I'm getting my reading by her august 31st. I saw her at cosmic awakening videos and stuff. She knows over 20 light languages.  There's another guy I've been watching who's got a really cool personality and says things I don't hear elsewhere. I think you'd dig him.  Rion DeRouen at unite the collective on Youtube. Have been watching the coffee with Rion ones.  Everyone seems to be intertwined, go figure. Even EA was on one of his videos on Youtube. Rion was at the cosmic awakening as well, and I also noticed Lightstar in some of his videos as well.  Everyone has their specialties and different way of helping. 

I'm cleansing my house and bought some different things.  Rion sells some really powerful crystal things he makes, I bought a couple, including this small dragon, and a lotus light. I mean he builds pyramids to go over your bed and shit. Cost a pretty penny.  I'm feeling pretty alone yes.  I want this healing to be done with yesterday. I'm making headway, it's been a rough fucking several months I tell ya, like shit man.  I think it's starting to calm down a little. It's supposed to be the lionsgate portal time July 28-August 12th. If you know anything about that.  I've been learning some stuff and how it can help us.

I'm trying to get my house clean which is taking forever. Can't seem to get the motivation. Feeling alone is a total motivation blocker also.  Like why bother even getting dressed or showering? I want to start getting out of the house finally and going somewhere where there are actual human beings.  Maybe a yoga center, or I don't know.  I could join a fitness center.  I would have to fake a smile.  I feel no good feelings.  I want to find them again somehow.  Maybe all that will ignite it you know? instead of waiting to feel better to do things, do things and maybe I'll feel better.  If I can find that connection with Source and my soul family and guides, that would help.  I guess I should try harder with the meditations . 

I think I need to go to the park I used to go to a lot for several years up until I moved across town.  It's so beautiful there and I started jogging there and lost a lot of weight but then I moved and gained it all back.  That's on my to do list.  To go back where I was familiar and I have missed it.  I felt like I fell off a cliff when I moved and crash landed. The beautiful nature is much needed. Like a paradise there. They plant tons of flowers and it has a pond with ducks and geese and two fountains and a butterfly house and it's just magical. All the critters aren't afraid of anyone.  I used to walk barefoot on the grass there a lot.  I take the bus around.  It's pretty hot here in South Missouri.  Need to get up real early and go there. Take some pics and share them. 

That's cool you could help heal your kitties.  I used to help animals a lot over 20 years ago and since childhood.  One man rescue mission. It was my huge passion.  I kinda lost it somewhere.  I got hurt, I got bitter, and jaded by all the cruelty I saw, and some really painful losses I had, and haven't had a dog again in over 22 years.  Didn't have a cat again either for over 13 years until Sully. I think about volunteering at the shelter and that that might help with my healing and theirs at the same time. I'm pretty sure something to do with animals is supposed to be one of my missions. When I was on the cosmic site that one time, I think it was Leonie who said she saw me working with a crystal ball and then she mentioned maybe I can heal animals. And she didn't know anything about my history.  I keep seeing ads on facebook like free masterclass to be an animal healer or holistic animals coach and other things. Maybe I can do something there. Who knows?  Gotta find the light within me again first. Maybe doing it is what ignites it.  I keep thinking I can't be creative either until I feel creative. Isn't that kinda backwards?  Like just start making art and it'll feed the soul.  

Want to redecorate and make this a sanctuary to die for. Trying to figure out the theme exactly. I'm walking over boxes and garbage  and papers everywhere, and it's such a mess, kinda like my brain. My carpets need shampooing so bad. ugh  All I wanna do is order a pizza and watch a movie.  Screw it. How come no one talks on the phone anymore? That's been bugging me a lot lately.  Like not even my son. Everything is texting. Such a distant feeling and isolating feeling. It's  hard to talk on the phone now because of not doing it for so long.  I'm used to figuring out what i want to say before hand in texts, and you can delete and stuff.  But that's messed up.  Where's the spontaneity in that?  I remember a time we used to talk on corded phones for hours about nonsense.  Especially as a kid. 

@nickq1233 I'm sorry Nick, wishing you strength, and I'm sure you can feel Rufio's energy in your heart forever ♥ 

The Universe is teaching us a lesson about loss, and how to deal with it. Remember death doesn't exists and that the energy/ soul fragment / spirit is always there and part of us. It's an aspect of God, oneness, Source ánd a reflection of a part inside us. So beautiful how it works. Besides, emotions are to be felt in this dimension, so all we can be is grateful. 

Awe gotcha. I’m not super educated on that stuff. I’ve never messed around with oracle or tarot cards. Very cool that she creates the art herself. I need to get more familiar with all that. Now you have me wanting to get that same oracle deck. Lol. Good call on saging it first. First thing I do with crystals, pendulums and pendulum boards. I’ll do most my psychic stuff mentally but I do use a pendulum pretty often. Great for yes and no questions and answers. That’s so cool that the deck is infused with light language and light codes. I love Light language. I meditate to Lemurian light language all the time. Thanks for recommended Rion. Was he involved in the cosmic awakening group related to this forum or a show ? That’s awesome that Elizabeth has been on a video with him. I’ll check that out. Who made that Oracle Deck? I don’t catch her name? She has a business called Light star creations? She’s going a reading on you soon? That’s exciting. Where can you find Rions Crystal items?the dragon sounds cool. 

I hear you on the healing. It’s like never ending. Lol. The energies right now are surfacing so many old me memories and trauma. It’s good that we’re all making progress though. Sounds like you’re been off loading a good amount of trauma and doing some good healing. I love that you’re cleansing your place:) We need our scared spaces to be clear. Maybe out some protective mantras over your doors? I have protective crystals and mantra prayers over every entry door. I’ll attach a pic. Just printed out on card stock. 

I’m glad that things are settling for you. You’re putting in really good work, you can tell. That’s cool that you’re focusing on the Lions Gate Portal. 8/8 is supposed to be an important date to meditate in relation to the portal. I hear you on the motivation. Feeling lonely is no fun. Luckily we have forums like this and other starseed community. Are you connected with Lily telegram group chat? I’ve been spending some time over there. Really good people over there. Advanced starseeds. Lily sent me a link a while back. Here it is.

https://t.me/+d7n8U7dGhJFiNTFh Hello Everyone! Join the group chat to join in on discussions & conversation! 😎💜🛸

Lots of people posting all sorts of stuff pretty regularly. Good group to pop into. 

Maybe it will help you to view cleaning, and self care and self love? Like how you got some new clothes and how you’re decorating. It’s so important to treat ourselves like we would treat someone that we love. Like your son or Sully. We do so many things for those we love but we dont always do the same for ourselves. We need to treat ourselves like we are the Sullys too. That’s one thing that has really helped me. My inner child and higher self were not happy with me until I really started to invest time and effort into showing myself love. Maybe thats getting some new clothes, a nice bath or whatever. I indulge my inner child with things from time to time. Maybe think of something that you really enjoyed when you were a kid and bring that forth now. An old toy, crafts, jewelry, whatever you were into as a kid. 🙂

Yoga would be so good for you. Maybe they have a gym near you that has a combination of equipment and yoga sessions? Going to to interact with humans and socializing is good. We can get stuck in a rut if we’re coupled up in our homes all the time. Maybe go for a hike in nature or take a nice stroll at the park. Meditating out doors is awesome, great for grounding too. Do you have any interests that would force you out doors? Stuff you enjoy not things that you feel obligated to do. I hear you on the heat. Gotta get our early for sure. If I’m hiking I try to get to the trail like like 8 am cause it’ll get to 106 by noon in Southern California. Barefoot 🦶 anything is so good. I water my grass daily barefoot with the intention of grounding. Ants suck though. I keep getting ants 🐜 crawling up my feet when I’m in the grass. Lol. It’s the season. 

Maybe look into countering a little at an animal shelter. You can activate your chakras and gain the ability to heal the animals. Energy healing ❤️‍🩹 via meditation or physical healing with intention using the palms of your hands. Leonie @le-o-ns is great. I was just chatting with her a couple minutes ago. She’s my bud. 🙂 ❤️ She is so accurate with her readings. Her reports and notes after are so detailed and accurate. Have you looked into maybe volunteering at an animal shelter? You’ll re light 💡 your spirit. You’re doing it right now. Sometimes that action is the step that provides you with that last boost to get you where you want to be. It’s always a process thing, right? We’re always working on ourselves. Working happily on our selves is the goal.:) Shadow work sucks but it’s so important to get us to that “working happily” state of being. You’re doing so much great shadow work. You’re putting in your work. If you take action where you’re inspired to take action that will benefit you so much. Gotta keep your higher self and guides happy too. Some of those urges come from your higher self and guides. I know you have a ton of angelic support and guardian angels. They’ve even come to me for me to give you a message. Lol. You know what you need to do. Just take small steps. Add one thing. Nothing overwhelming just one thing that will make you happy. Maybe thats going to your old park that you mentioned? 

Im super excited about your sacred space. Sage, crystals, prayer mantras, salt rocks 🪨 are all good things. I think you’ll have so much fun turning your place into your spiritual haven. Your scared space. Saged, purified and ready to serve you and your mission. Are you into creating art? Maybe you could get creative on a wall? You don’t want to see my bedroom. Lol. It’s like tree wall meets timelines, meets prayer mantras. Meets Rambo cause I have all my military and hiking stuff in my room too. Lol. I have this tree of life round art peace that I got for $10bucks on Amazon and I used thin pin striping tape to extend the roots above and below all over my wall. Then I morphed that on a different wall into timelines. Im single, so I can turn my bedroom into what it is.:) Yeah, no one talks on the phone any more unless it’s for work. When I’m home I want to disconnect from all humans. Lol. I’ll chat with starseeds but that’s different.I need a lot of time alone personally. I’ll meditate, communicate telepathically with my ET family and I’ll learn a lot when I’m alone. All I’ve done is learn learn learn. Lol. I guess they feel it to be super important for me to know a lot of random shit, lol. It’s helpful for forums like EAs but I can’t turn it off and just veg or watch a movie. Ha ha. If I’m not doing something or meditating they’ll pop in. They are popping in as I write this reply. 🙂 They’re like…. “Hey, you want to learn about 24 pair chromosomes and 12 stand DNA 🧬 ? “ lol. I’m like , ok. It’s funny. Life is so different than pre Covid. Isn’t life pretty weird now? Or like really, really weird? In comparison to what we were used to say 3-5 years ago?

@lighthealer_arkie Thanks Arkie ❤️. That’s so true about loss. I do find comfort in the fact that she’s home and I’ll unite with her at some point. No one’s ever lost forever. 🙂 Just energies part of one Source. You make a very good point about spirit. Just looking at it like from that Source level. Soul spark fragmentation and the one connectedness with Source. She’s there in her true form with her awareness of all of her incarnations I’m sure. I bet she’s checking in on things here and there. She was there for me in the physical. I’ll assume she’s there for me spirit as well ❤️ 💡 🐈‍⬛ 🪽 👼  Makes me really appreciate her brothers. Tiger is asleep right next to me as I’m typing this. His brother Sketchers, Rufio’s twin is down stairs somewhere causing trouble. Love my boys ❤️ 

Thanks again Arkie:)

@nickq1233 Sorry for your loss Nick I hope that you feel her guidance from the other side 😻🪐🌟

@nickq1233 sorry Nick about your loss.  I have a friend who lost his cat, she passed away... he spent a few weeks crying over her  asking the universe to send him back his cat  .  A few weeks later his sister brought him home a kitten she had found. That kitten arrived in his home the same date he  had  adopted the other cat that he had lost. That kitten walked around in the house and went straight to the other cat s picture and stared at it for at least an hour. My friend could feel the energy of that cat,  as though it was the same cat who had reincarnated. And  Just little things that that cat did which were the same and with the same energy. And the synchronicity with the dates. So cute. 💖 

I am not advising you to do that but cats are part of our lives for a certain reason and a certain contract , As healing partners too. So many cats and dogs stories I heard from regression sessions..... some human réincarnated into a dog in 2010. My friend who was the  "client" saw under hypnosis her life with that dog in the 19th century. The dog was the 5 year old son she lost at that time and he is there now to support her. 

It is comforting to know we will see them again in another life or maybe in this life 😉💖💖💖  bon courage as we say in french ! 

@verbindingswerk Thanks Mariska:) ❤️ I do feel her from time to time. I can connect to her energy like how we do in the group healing sessions but I cry if I do it so I’m trying to let the loss cycle through. It does make me feel better though knowing I can connect to her. It’s just an emotional 🥲 situation if I do:).

@marieguerdin11 Wow Marie. Thanks for sharing that. What a trip. That’s amazing. I remember hearing somewhere that sometimes our guides or soul tribe members can incarnate as an animal to support you as part of your ascension team. Like some prefer to incarnate for shorter periods and without the karmic ties so they incarnate as an animal? Like you were saying about your client? The synchronicity with the date is crazy. Very cool. Thanks for that Marie:)

@nickq1233  yes sometimes they have a very short life because they are just there for one mission and then either they die or get lost and they move to another family. They are here to heal you and support you, and feel love 💖

I had a client whose cat showed up during the session and said he had only been there with her for 2 years  on order to help with her multiple sclerosis.  That was the contract . I also have a friend who lived Alone,  she was single and suffered from depression,  she was contemplating suicide... while she was thinking about HOW she was going to commit suicide , she heard a kitten meowing at her door.  A cute black kitten.... no need to explain that he helped her hold on to life and she feels much happier now. She says she is not thinking about suicide anymore because she is now responsible for her "baby". (She does not have kids).   He was sent by Heaven ! 😍

Concerning the friend with the dog there was a karmic tie. That dog is very old now and still her supporting her.  But indeed I wonder about other situations,  like that black kitten who appeared out of the blue, was there a karmic tie ? That is a good question I need to ask the HigherSelf one day during a session.