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Hi Everyone! I Would love to have open conversations regarding who you were prior to “awakening” with pro’s & Cons after the start of your journey in regards to learning & processing what you have learned, emotionally, mentally & discussing what you felt with others.
I for one have never had a desire to learn anything. I didn’t do well in school, more of a social butterfly & never watched the news or up to date on any sports or celebrities with music or actors or actress. I was blissfully ignorant. Which I loved, why would I want to learn about negative or sad events or people of power? I just loved talking to people and talking about feelings. I had no drive for any profession, never had a care for saving for retirement or putting money in a 401k or savings account. I just floated on by. I never traveled. I never had a desire to travel. I don’t have the attention span for movies & I dislike reading books. I jumped around to all very random jobs and was just so content.
I loved the way I lived. Until really becoming an adult around 27ish, I couldn’t carrying on a conversation about current events, I have no political ground, I don't remember learning about anything in history or social studies. After having children, I would always say “I just feel like im exsisting” all the time … have no purpose,(other than being a mom) I’m not really good at anything, i don’t have any hobbies, no drive for knowledge, fear of not being good enough with going back to college. At times I feel like I did myself such an injustice. I had no idea about this amazing world we live in. All the different cultures, the different religions and theories on life. The amazing places to visit and the history of it. It’s like I’m a little kid overwhelmed with learning so much plus everything in my adult world of trying to be a good wife & mom with 3 kids, dogs, sports and school activities and trying to work. And extending myself to watch all my friends & family’s kids & babies.
Not to mention all the texts, phone calls and emails with everyday life. I never been good with technology never wanted to learn the ins and outs and half the time don’t have my phone on me or near me. But I still have the responsibility to monitor my children’s technology…which is a job all in its self.
It’s a rough juggle. Especially hard feeling so hungry for knowledge and wanting to talk to like minded people and learn from them. I just all of a sudden love learning, but my life is sooo busy! And of course trying to learn to mediate 😳 the sadness of how oblivious to all the bad in the world and corruption. Luckily In real life with my day to day I pick up on people very well. But It’s like I’m getting hit in the face with everything, things I should have learned while I was younger plus what’s happening now. I am not sad by any means, of course when I learn about certain things I’m horrified.
But it got me thinking, did I block out everything while I was younger so it didn’t dull my light so when it was time for me to learn everything and really “awaken” I would be able to keep my peace and continue to have faith in a higher power and still have faith in people and try and help people see it from another prospective? just hard because sometimes I feel like a complete idiot I had no idea who Nichola Tesla was or Elon musks or so many important history events & people. Not to mention when I urn to talk about stuff that I just discovered or experienced it’s like my brain is flooded with so many things, nothing comes out right. My best analogy is like having 20 different tabs open on a computer screen and only a random sentence from each open tab comes out of my mouth and nothing makes sense. Lol it’s like I’m sorting so much out in my head and I can make it all make sense and connect the dots. But I can’t relay it all properly.
Has anyone else had a similar experience? Or similar feelings?
Or anyone else like EA who has always wanted to know more? And so good and explaining?
This is her FB Post.
@shellabella14 Hahaha you're so welcome here and you're so blessed with this inner child like attitude, i mean child like view of the world! This is a good time for your awakening journey, as now there are many many others who are in the same position as you are. Five years ago this group didn't exist. At least not on this scale. So welcome to this warm community! ❤
@shellabella14 Hi Destiny, take it at your own pace, that's the beauty of being on your own journey- its a discovery and an adventure. When I was in my late teens I took the spiritual dive and went deep (at that time it was deep for me) and it blew my mind - it made me too introverted at a young age and it was hard for me to talk to other people (especially my age group) who were not into spiritual matters. I don't regret it but looking back maybe it was too much for what I could handle and process at the time. I wish this site had been around back then, this is a wonderful platform that Elizabeth has created for star seeds & like minded beings to come together. Give yourself some time to digest and integrate the info because it can be overwhelming. You will get your rhythm and groove in your own time to articulate what you have learned, trust the process ❤️
@shellabella14 Glad that you are part of our cosmic community! ✨❤️✨❤️
Thank you so much Arkie! I love reading your posts and responses to others! You are like a fountain of knowledge for me! I think I have my ADHD & Dyslexia to help with carrying on my inner child. Pros & cons just like everything else. But blessed with it all! 💞💫
I truly am so grateful to be apart of this community! 🫶
Thank you Maiyan! I had a similar experience in my teens. I actually was an alter server for my church on my own free will. Lol I would even walk to church by myself. I didn’t align to everything they were teaching, so I questioned it and ended up stepping away. I have always had faith in god, Faith in a higher power. When I became an adult I went back to receive my confirmation so I could be a god parent to my nephew and again things weren’t adding up to me on an adult level. Still had faith but didn’t have religion.
I feel so much more connected now than ever to “my faith” basically trying to live by my own mono being kind compassionate loving and understanding for other and always trying to look through another person’s perspective.I agree with you about timing and it will all unfold when the timing is right. By no means I’m not trying to rush my time here. It just feels good to have a hungry appetite to make sense of things and not sitting at the table alone. Being in a community with like minded… yet open minded loving people is so fulfilling in its own. ❤️
what started your most recent journey?
@christina2-2 Thank you Christina! I feel so blessed to be here!🩷💫
@shellabella14 Hey there! Thank you for sharing so vulnerably. I resonate with SOOOO much of what you said. I have been rabbit holing really hard the past year and half as I started to awaken. Every answer I get leads to 100 more questions. So yeah, I get the 20 open tabs and random sentences coming through. I can't imagine going through this process with everything you have on your plate. I only awakened because I literally isolated myself from the world because I felt like I was going to explode or end it all. I couldn't take the heaviness of the world and all of the people in my life I was trying to be the best for. The universe gave me a safe out. My dad got sick so I moved away from where I grew up and in with him to take care of him. It was the only way I didn't feel guilty for leaving everyone to focus on me. I felt like it was selfish to do so.
I have since discovered that I am much more useful to others now that I have healed and grown and am accepting all parts of me a little more each day. I am going to send you a direct message with my phone number. You can call or text or WhatsApp anytime if you'd like to connect and chat about whatever! It is so important for us to stick together and help lift each other up. I am so grateful for this community. Hope to hear from you!
awww love this message! Same with you! I feel Vulnerability is only a weakness when you allow it to be. I find for me being open & honest is the only way. That’s how I relate to people. We have all been through things no shame in that. It might help someone else who isn’t ready to be as open to navigate through a similar situation. In my opinion life would be a really boring story if we didn’t have any drama or cliff hangers to try and figure out and overcome then see how it turned out a few chapters further into the book. Right?! lol
When I was reading your post I instantly thought of this new cute little sign that I fell in love with. Which might be my next tattoo or something similar. 😉 I’m so glad you reached out! I will definitely message you back so we can link up! 💞💫
@shellabella14 You're in the right place! 🥰 Thank you for being vulnerable and sharing your story in the forum. You won’t be judged here. We all have different paths and experiences on this journey. Let’s embrace this ride together, and welcome to your awakening journey! ❤️✨
@shellabella14 I definitely see what you're saying. I must've been bored to sign up for this life. I would be happy with boredom forever at this point. 😅 (hormones taking over today 🤣) But I just keep pushing through and taking steps in the direction my spirit leads and remember how many people are barely waking up and need us to help them feel connected and understood. Look forward to hearing from you! I love the quote! It's a goodie!